Ignorance.Is.Bliss

~my 'Other' side~

2009?.. Selamat Tinggal..

today is the last day of year 2009.

what was my achievement this year? what was the best moment i can share to everybody this year? what have i done actually?.. anything?.. nothing??.. yup. nothing i can say actually about year 2009. put in in a simple word, nothing worthy to say.

my life, for the past 2 years was like the world economy. why do i say that?.. because for the past 2 years things had gone from bad to worse (the americans started it. blame them). a lot of countries was and some still is, in recession. a lot of people become jobless. people said (well, actually, the government said) in 2009 the economy will get better, will improve and everything will be fine.. what a load of bullshit! and crap are all over the place!..  the truth the economy is not getting better. a LOT of people are still jobless. a lot of false hope. a lot of sadness. well, my life was sort of like that. not exactly but more or less similar in concept. 

but suddenly. out of nowhere. i saw lights at the end of the tunnel. not much but enough for me believe that hope is not lost, at a time where hope seems to i was stunned and confused myself. but i'm more thankful than ever. i felt bless. i feel a bit shame. because i a bad man. but Allah still helps me even i'm a baaaaad person.

honestly, i can't wait for this year to end and for 2010 to start! a little bit nervous because i don't know what will happen BUT i can't wait to start afresh! starting next year i am like a new born baby.. err.. maybe more like a fresh grad la. more suitable.. =) shit, i'm so nervous and a little afraid la pulak. damn..

i pray to Allah that starting next year, hopefully, everything will be for the better. i mean no more economy downturn. i know there will be ups and downs also but i hope that history would not repeat itself again.

this is it. a new beginning. a new challenge. a new life. a new hope.

i also want to wish everybody a Happy New Year! may Allah bless all of you with happiness.

Hari Ini Birthday Aku!..

yes.. "welcome to the club!".. as they always say.. what club?.. some say 3-series club (among friends la mostly).

so without further a due. today. i celebrate my 30th birthday. so that means, i am now, 30 years old!.. hehehe.

gosh, the number has changed.. and coincidentally my life has just begun. fate. maybe. but i am thankful to Allah.

Aku Kehilangan Lagi Seorang Sahabat.

why?

the same question i thought i had left behind suddenly came knocking again. i'm happy but sad at the same time. in 2 days time a good friend will tie the knot and i'm so happy for him. but deep down i will miss him very much.

things will be different of course. we have been friends for 9 years, housemates for 5 year. been together for ups n downs.

i'm just sad. and i felt so lonely. lots of people left me.

Confused?

To love is to suffer.
To avoid suffering one must not love.
But then one suffers from not loving.

Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer.
To suffer is to suffer.
To be happy is to love.
To be happy then is to suffer.
But suffering makes one unhappy.

Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness.

So.. which one is it?!..

To love or to suffer?..

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