yup.. today i'm officially homeless. no.. really.. i AM homeless. means i do not live in a-rented-home-that-i-paid-monthly-anymore home..
after 6 years or so, i finally moved out today. really i didnt feel to much sadness but deep down i do feel somewhat a bit sad. the longest rented house i've lived in since i came to this big city. overall i had lived in 6 houses. this being my longest.
why i dont just rent another house or a room?.. well, something happened and the current situation forbids me to even rent a room. why?.. cant tell right now. we'll see what happens within the next few weeks and maaaybe i'll tell. it all depends..
right this moment i really want to share about the memories i went through. all the good, the bad, the happy or the sad, while i was staying there. everything are passing through my head right now. but, again, maybe not today.
but one thing i want to share today is that i've just noticed that i've become less emotionally attached to.. emm.. things around me.. not sure if its a good or a bad thing.. for instance, my current (or should i say, my ex-current) house. 6 years was not a short span of time. that house was filled with memories that i just could let it go away. a lot of significant events, some even became the turning point of my life, happened while i lived there.. if its the old me, i may have shed a tears already. but the new me prevent it from happening.
i dont know. i sensed that my heart is not as soft as it used to be. the 'love' factor is much less than before. maybe i've become a more harden person that i used to..
really hope that love is not gone. because a heart with no love is like a cake with no sugar in it. sure nobody wants to want it. let alone eat it..
So Fake!
6 years ago
