Teringat Yang Lama

these past few days (maybe weeks..) i kept remembering things. about someone.

i don't know. maybe because her birthday is coming up soon kot. and today i have this strong urge to google her name online. i did. i found her.

kena lah pulak at the same time i was listening to some songs through my winamp player and those romantic sad songs being played. pergh.. makan dalam babe. and things get a little bit emo la kan.

it has been like nearly 2 years since. and today i 'saw' her. albeit just a in a social networking site but it was enough to make me all... weak. inside outside.

the song 'mengenangmu' from kerispatih really gets into me. i love this song. the lyric somewhat reflect what i felt. and when i 'saw' her while this song was playing.. i was rendered.. speechless.

i assume that was the latest picture of her. and if it was then she haven't change at all. a very beautiful lady. the same lady that captivated me over 5 years ago..

and never faded ever since..

Huiss.. Lama Betul Tak Update..

let me check. today is 27th June 2010.

1..2..3..

wooo.. 5 month and.. 15 days to be exact. since my last post. damn.. giler lame! there are so much to tell. don't know where to start.. again..

a lot has happened. new things experienced. new friends made. feelings felt. new places went to. speaking of which, i just came back from a 4 days course at tanjung surat in johor. what an experience. a beautiful place. beautiful friends. and beautiful moments. moments we cherished for the rest of our life. i felt 'young' again. haha.. and for some people they felt 'single' again.. guys will always be guys ya!..

really miss blogging. this is the only place where i can be my own self. say what i want to say. that said, i will try to not neglect my blog anymore. or at least not for 5 long months!..

so dengan lafaz Bismilah.. dengan ini saya ingin menyatakan.... i'm back!!

Pergh.. Lama Gilos Tak Blog

my last entry: 5th october.
today: 29th november.

wow.. it has been a while eh. hmm.. i have my 'assorted' reasons. one of which, of course, ones laziness. there is also the laptop malfunction thingy. then the going-to-cc budget also. yada yada..

so it felt nice to post something after a while hibernating. nearly 2 month absent means a lot of things had happened. but yet again, time and money (especially the later) are my biggest let down right now. maybe not today.

Mari Belajar Ilmu Hisab

question:

if there was 89 vacancies in a particular government agency while there were 1759 candidates. what was the probability that 1 candidate would secure the job?

answer:

you divide 89 by 1759. then you times 100. so the answer is 5.o6%.

so the probability of that 1 person getting that precious job vacancy is only 5.06%.

wait! that percentage is only valid if.. and only if the interviewer was totally by the book.

naaaah!!.. i don't think so.

so let see.. from that 89, half would probably had been 'reserved'. sedara, adik, kakak, abang, kawan bapak, cucu dato', cicit datin bla bla.. alah, you know what i mean.

so when you calculated the new figure, the new probability would be 2.53%..

2.53% out of 100%..

great.

Cukup Seh..

i did it this year. completed my terawih every night. well, some nights i did 8. some i did 20. some did 8 first berjemaah then continued the rest at home. a few nights did 20 at home. a few nights i did only 8 at home. including tonight.

because i was so tired. i was very tak larat. but nevertheless managed to terawih after arrived at home at 3am!

today *morning* i have to get up early. help my family first. help my family cleaned up the house or do whatever is necessary. then at around 1pm or 2pm have to go start work again at the bazaar. last day of puasa. konfem ramai org!.. aaarghh!.. gonna be super duper tired. because we have to pack everything and simpan. estimated completion time - 3am!.. aaarrgghh! di pagi raya plak tuh.. :(

Penat Macam Nak Patah Pinggang

extremely tired!

i was working yesterday.. yup. you herd me right. =) i'm back in kuching and yesterday i started helping with my ipar at the bazaar ramadhan selling shoes n t-shirts. to name a few. i was there at around 11am++ and finished worked around maybe 1am++. that was around 14 hours or work! i have 2 more days here. sigh! i'm a salesman once more.. haha!

i brings back memories while i working at the supermarket days. working from 9.30am until 11pm or 12am. it has been a long time since i felt the same tiredness. extreme tiredness. felt like my hips were dislocated.. =)

just wants to earn extra money and also wanted to feel what it is like to be a bazaar trader. and i got to taste it yesterday. first hand! boy what an experience it was! i enjoyed it every bit. even the tiredness ;)

now i'm back at the one of the stall (they have 2 stalls). my turn to stay on guard for the night. yes, i'm actually sleeping at the bazaar!.. it's gonna be a loooooong day today. and tomorrow.

p/s: still managed to do terawih albeit on my own while i was at home just now to take a few things. including my notebook. hehe.. 1 more terawih night to go!

Puasa Di Selekoh Terakhir

pejam celik.. pejam celik.. aik, 3 more days left to fast!

3 more days and ramadhan is over. gosh.. how time fly. and i'm back to my hometown. home sweet home they say. a place of serene and peace.

so far this years ramadhan i did quite good in the terawih department. yup.. very good actually. i haven't miss a day. either berjemaah or sendirian kat bilik. either 8 or 20 rakaat.. yet.. BUT.. it may come to a halt starting tomorrow. because starting tomorrow i will be helping my in-law selling some stuff at a bazaar. and i may be required to stay for the night a.k.a sleep there.. i was determine to complete it this year. its just gonna be 2 more nights left!..

we will see la how it goes. aku nak jugak!. tak kira! lagi 2 malam ni.. ishk!.. i'll do it at the booth la kot after most of them are asleep. but the manner in which how would i do it remains uncertain. hmm..

i also can't wait to meet my long lost friends. if not everyone, meeting some of them is good enough. can't believe some still remember me even it has been like.. nearly 17 or 18 years since primary school! one other instances, i met *or date. she said date* a new acquaintance only once *a friend of a classmate in maktab* but she still remembers me now. and that meeting *or date* was way back in 1995-96.. she reckon it was the best ever. ya right.. with a few other classmates tagging along.. hahaha.. those were the days.. =)

some of my ex-colleagues during my jusco days -for those who work (group A)- starts their full shift beginning today. for those who are on leave (group B) - starts their holiday today.

it is still fresh in my memory. working full shift - 9:30am-11pm - for 5 days straight (minus the 1st day of raya where we started work at 12pm) while manpower also were depleted in half! sometimes i swipe out at 12am or more if it was my turn to do supermarket closing. it was so tiring.

and it was more tiring in 2007 *my 2nd time working during raya* because i was the ONLY section leader working on that day. luckily there were also six management trainees (5 of them manage other dept. their section leader were on holiday la. mane lagi..) working. plus my line manager and our selling floor assistant manager. *both were non-muslim so they were not in any group*.

really miss those days though. even sometimes the tiredness was unbearable but there were some things we just can't forget. the happy moments in life. wish i could feel it again.

me and ani a.k.a cik rahmaniah. one of my MT's. the other one cuti.

me and maarof. my ex-staff while i was an SL at daily & dairy. photo taken after work near staff entrance.

i have to sleep early because i have to wake up early tomorrow..err..i mean today. but.. i am just not sleepy yet.. ish.. i'm very the dead meat.

09.09.09...Dan Selamat Hari Jadi Mohamad Ridzuan

today is Mohamad Ridzuan Madin's birthday. his birthday also coincide with the special date 9th september 2009 or 09.09.09!

me likey no. 9.. because.. well, it's so obvious.. duh!.. =P

just want to wish him all the best in life and also wish all your dreams come true bro. may Allah bless you always.

last year i had an entry on 08.08.08. this year 09.09.09. and hopefully next year on 10.10.10. why? nothing specific. just don't want to be left out on the a-few-thousand-year-only-happened-once thingy. =)

well, same as last year. this year all the sami's, father's, maybe tok kadi's must be very very busy today. ye la, a lot of people wouldn't want to miss this special date as an anniversary date. i had read in the newspaper *can't remember when* there would be a mass buddhist wedding today somewhere in malaysia.

the chinese believed number 9 has an auspicious meaning. the same goes to number 6 and 8. number 9  is a homophone/homonym of the word for 'longlasting' or 'everlasting'. so as such is often used in wedding. thus the mass wedding taken place today. i read it was like hundreds of couples! it also signifies friendship, love and long lives.

for me. no specific meaning. just love the number because..well, i was born on the 9th.. =)

Bahaya Jadi Insomnia nih..

i was 2 hours short of NOT sleeping in 24 hours yesterday. still it was a worrying trend. i don't know. i just couldn't sleep!

actually, this was my 3rd time in a little more than 2 weeks i've been like this. the 2nd time i was awake was like for 25 hours. i think it was last monday.

ape dah jadik ngan aku nih?! gosh..

Selamat Hari Gawai 2009

gayu guru gerai nyamai. minum tuak.. mabuk kita.. yey!.. hehe..

i never knew what it meant. the minum tuak thing i just added it myself.

anyway, today is the 1st june 2009 and its gawai dayak day to most of dayak people in sarawak. i nearly forget about it. you know lah kan, unless you are in sarawak or you tune in to rtm, you'll tend to forget that there are two more festive holiday in malaysia. the other one would be pesta keamatan celebrated in sabah.

to all dayak people in malaysia, i wish you selamat hari gawai dayak. iboh minum tuak banyak gilak.. hehe..

have fun and happy holiday!

Rekod Tak Tidur

i officially didn't sleep for more than 34-35 hours!

i don't know why. i just couldn't sleep. kids.. don't do this at home. or anywhere else for that matter. it's bad for your health.

Mata Masih Boleh Bertahan Ni..

it has been over 24 hours. i haven't sleep for more than 24 hours.

gosh.. i can't remember the last time i kept my eyes open this long.

went out around 8am. went home around 2:15pm. cuci pakaian. lipat pakaian. surfing jap. a bit sleepy la but not much.

it's a bit late to sleep now because if i do i might overshoot and miss the final HOME match. between chelsea and blackburn at stamford bridge at 11pm. also the last home game for guus hiddink as chelsea manager.

i'll try my best to stay awake. but already set my alarm clock incase i overslept.

i can do it!.. hopefully.. hehe..

Selamat Pagi Malaysia!

its 6:16 am. sunday morning. i can't get myself to sleep. it's sunday morning for God sake! people wake up late today.

i did try. well i'll just have to stay awake then. good morning everybody.

for those who are still having a beautiful dream right now, i wish your dream will come true. but for those having bad dreams, don't worry. it was just a dream. when you wake up, you'll soon realize everything was just the devil's act.

good morning again to all. just remember, loving and being loved is... all bullshit!! hahaha... just kidding. :-)

Selamat Hari Buruh (Selamat Duit Aku.. Hehe..)

first and foremost, i would like to wish all labourer or working people in malaysia a merry happy labour day. it was yesterday so a bit late wishing you all.. sorry eh..

for those who are eligible to pay the income tax, congratulations for executing your responsibilities. you make your country and countrymen (and women) proud! because you people help maintain to keep the road of smaller holes, keep half the street lights bright and ofcourse the green coloured light from the traffic light still working.

and for those who forgot or make-make forgot.. err.. emm.. err.. just pray a lot la, ok.
hey.. i heard prison food not so bad what..

so why was my duit selamat yesterday?.. haaaaaa.... pada suatu petang. dalam perjalanan pulang dari jusco, wa dengan konfiden nye menunggang motor otomatik wa tanpa rasa gundah gulana.

buuuutt.. setelah sampai di suatu simpang dan wa ingin membelok ke kiri, wa dapati trafik telah jem. wa pun terfikir sejenak, "tak kan rodblok kot?"... sebab tak pernah ade rodblok time petang-petang kat lokasi tuh. mesti eksiden nih..

anyway.. jeng jeng jeng.. tetibe wa rase gundah gulana la plak. wa pun berenti parking kat tepi divider dan dengan segera cek rodtax wa (still tak tau rodblok ke eksiden). aaarrgghh!.. roadtax nowhere to be found.. fuck!

make a call to farid. konfem! die lupe nak bagi balik. damn!

so wa maju kan ke depan tengok pesal jem?.. konfem! rodblok JPJ.. whatta fuck!

ape lagi, wa pusing my motor atomatik patah balik ikut walkway tuh guna jalan belakang plak. setelah ikut jalan yang paling jauh dan siap macam penjenayah tengok line clear ke tak, wa berjaya sampai rumah dengan jayanye.. yey!

so wa terpakse tunggu farid balik dari kampung (yup, farid ada kat kampung nye kat nogori sombilan dengan rodtax wa). esok baru balik.

as for the time being naik bas la if want to go far-far.. shit!

still, syukur wa ke hadrat Illahi. selamat duit wa bayar saman.

"4 Missed Call"

i have been staring at the screen for like eternity, thinking of what are the right words to start this post. and still don't have a clue.

i feel like writing something. i want to write something. i just don't know how to start.

today i felt quite sad actually. partly because i didn't answer a phone call. the irony was that i've been waiting haplessly for it and when it did finally rang, i was unaware of the blaring loud ringtone because i was in a deep fucking 'death' sleep (directly translated from tido mati). fuck! - that is what happen when you just starting to sleep during a time when other people are busy going to work.

the moment i woke up (and saw the missed call) my mood was nowhere to be found. so i started the day with the feeling of.. sadness.

only at somewhere around 5.30pm did i realize that i need to go out from my house. because i'm getting depressed.

i did some lepaking at kepong. managed to socialized with a few friends. clearing my mind of a few things.. for a while. when they started to go home around 8pm, well i should do the same.

on the way, thinking i don't want to pray in a rush i decided to stop by the mosque. i always admire the new kepong mosque. it is so modern and beautiful.

and one thing about praying in a mosque is that the state of calmness you are in. it's so different with praying alone at the comfort of our room everyday.

after prayer i decided to stay for the Yasin recitation. considering tonight was malam jumaat. week in week out i had been reciting it alone in my room, so i guess maybe i need a little change once in a while.

and boy we could really feel the difference doesn't it? the atmosphere, circumstances, mood, situation makes us more calm, serene, down to earth. i think the right word is more "kusyuk".

the imam said doing jemaah or reciting in groups is always better than doing alone. also the chances of our doa being heard are higher than doing it alone. maybe its kind of a teamwork thing. well, you know the concept. don't need to explain in details.

it is really hard when we really miss something or someone. it really gets into you that sometime hopeless is like a best friend, depress is your food and you drink tears. damn!

i asked a lot from God just now (and everyday infact). family, myself, someone. maybe mine were the least listen to but who know. maybe.. just maybe.

i went back home after isyak. still feeling down but better than earlier. so to speak.

i logged on at around after 9pm just now and now its already 1.42am. took more than 4 hours just thinking of what to write. countless minutes of walking around and to many poison smoke inhaled already (i lost count).

hmm.. i think i should sign off for tonight. my eyes are getting tired and sore watching at the screen.

-02:04am-

yours truthfully,

Earth Hour 2009

What the hell was it all about?

well if you want to make a difference, it’s just a simple flick of a switch.


once upon a time, it all began with earth hour 2007. in sydney australia, on the last saturday in march 2007 2.2 million people turned off their lights. why? to show their support for a global mandate for action on climate change.


only a year later in 2008 and this event had become a global movement with up to 50 million people across 35 countries participating. also as symbols of hope for a cause that grows more urgent by the hour.(i read it somewhere in the internet)


so people across the world will turn off their lights and join together in creating the vital conversation about the future of our precious planet.

so during the darkness what should we do? so either you do nothing or you do "something" la. kan dah gelap tuh. buat la "aktiviti" sendiri. lagi mau tanya ka? aiyo..


as a citizen of mother earth, i proudly claimed that i also joined millions of other earth inhibitor yesterday in turning off the lights.

by going to a kenduri kawen after noon. then lepak rumah ayie. then lepak kat mamak.. hehehe.. (because i don't know what to do without electricity for 1 hour) arrived home around nearly 10pm.

even my housemate went out, somewhere. so when no one was at home, no lights were turn on. get it?.. even my family also participated in this noble cause (my mom told me last night). only the tv was on she said. ok la tu kan. even her neighbour support the campaign.

well done humans. cheers!

Makan-makan Kat Rumah Ayie

sorry lah ayie. i know it was kind of late mentioning about the makan-makan at your house. even though it was like a few month back already. you know me.

[click picture to enlarge and read what i wrote.. hehe..]

so here are those moments that i managed to snapped.

the food was delicious bro. and abundant too. father in-law plak yang masak tuh. ape punya menantu. malu la wei.. hehehe.. kalau aku lah kan, essoook nye terus amik kelas belajar masak. muahaha!!...

lek bro. joking-joking eh..

kak anis ada, pak rem, ijad & awek ada. even azuan & wife & baby pun ade.

she is cute isn't she.

a baby girl by the name of melissa nur raisya was born to a proud parent of azuan and mimie. they live just a stone throw away from ayie's house. kira satu taman gak ar.

it was actually a house warming dinner. plus minus. they just moved in to the rented house so they did a sort of mini kenduri.

you know what, it was so worth it. i mean the house. untung betol. why? because it is a double-storey terrace house. with 4 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms. a huge living room. only like 15-20 minutes from kl. and the best part is, the rent is only rm450 per month! that's right. i was like, "are you serious? you have to be kidding me?" at first. well, you've got to see it to believe it.

actually it was like my idea of sort. and thanks to azuan also (he rented at the area first). because when he told me his house rent was only rm450/month i immediately told ayie (because he was looking for a house at that time).

with that price in kl? i think the best you can get is a flat with dirty elevator and lots and lots of foreigners (like my house.. hehe..).

Jom Pergi Seremban

you know what, even though seremban is like a stone throw away from klang valley (i mean not that too far la kan) i've never been to that city. infact the only place i have been to in negeri sembilan is port dickson. never the capital.

well, i'm proud to say, finally.. hehe.. but we were not there to jalan-jalan cari makan la. and its for like a few hours only-plus sesat. yup.. me and my two friends were in seremban for some business matter.

then we went back to kl and went to bukit bintang. also business matter. so alang-alang dah sampai, we did some jalan-jalan tengok orang.. hehe..

it has also been a while since i melawat bukit bintang. and i think i've stepped inside the pavillion shop mall for like only the 3rd time since.. as many years!.

even though the place is superbly magnificent but as a middle class malaysian citizen, the only thing i could afford is window shopping. and maybe some j.co donuts at best.

ijad & pak rem were caugh red-handed starring at a chikas walking past us-with her boyfriend.

Ferarri Maranello

nice car eh?.. wrooooong!!.. this is a fucking awesome car dude! look at this baby. damn hot!..
me and chi'gu din spotted this baby while we were wasting our time at one utama last week.


and there she was. looking hot and sexy amid all those attention, camera flashes, touching, rubbing, and imagining.. etc. she looked unperturbed and i think she enjoyed it even more. damn lucky car. i'm a pervert! arrrghhh!...

ops.. my bad. it's a super car. mind you.

look at those big round shinny beautiful rim.. grrr..


look at it. yes.
touch it. yes.
own it. why not. err.. maybe its possible. nothing is impossible right?.. wrong again.

not in a million years dowg.. hahaha..

anyway, damn this car is hot.

Ronda-ronda Luar Kotaraya

yesterday din "the cikgu" called me and asked me to accompany him to kajang to survey his wedding invitation card. so we went to a place, kind of like a bus terminal but they have shop lots above it.

seems that we were one hour late when we arrived. so then we went sight seeing to bangi. not to the centre of bangi but just to a shopping complex not far from the bus terminal.. hehe..

i never went there so, don't mind to just wonder around places i haven't been to. lepak at a mamak where the roti nan was not good and the nescafe ais was bad. not recommended.

then suddenly i said " jom gi putrajaya?". din looked at me one kind then he said "ok lah". so we went.

don't really remember when was the last time i went there. for me it was a beautiful and modern place. some people might beg to differ but who cares.

[click picture to enlarge]

first time went praying inside the putrajaya mosque. very beautiful mosque inside out. some renovation ongoing so a bit dusty. but what a magnificent architecture.

it was weekend so a lot of people around, just having a stroll or lepak-lepak with family members, couples, friends. some buses with out of town tourist etc etc..

jealousy creep a bit seeing them having fun. wish that i could be like them someday.