Melayang Layang

it is only 8.55 in the morning and my head is already not in the right state of mind. i can't think straight. my mind wonders.

a colleague just reminded me we have an exam to attend next week.. damn.. i'm still not prepared. (and that was not even the reason). even the easiest of task of data-entry also seems difficult. as i said my mind wonders through space.

just thankful i'm not doing any work that requires me to use my brain extensively. because i really can't concentrate right now.

not good. the last time i was like this it took me a looooong time to recover an a few kilos too.

i thought i can handle it. countless of songs herd, photos stare at, massages read. the effect was minimal. it thought i'm getting ok.

well, suprise surprise!.. i'm wrong again.. and again.. and again.. and again..

i'm just staring at my office's laptop LCD screen. staring blank. while listening to some songs.

i'm getting mad am i?.. 

Tugas Luar Pejabat

today's work was quite exciting. because i got to go out of the office!.. yeeeahh!.. sronot! sronot!..

where? we went looking APCO Worldwide.. ever heard about them?.. for those who tune to their tv or read the papers they should know. ok guys, let me make it clear. i'm not into politics that much. so we went there solely for the sake of work. nothing else. what ever they did for the government or what ever the opposition don't like about them, i just don't give a foot. i'm not taking sides. ada ngerti?..

anyway, i had a good day *hey, getting the chance to go out is good what*. even not as far as johor like last time but it was good anyway.. i loike!...

hmm.. a very mysterious company indeed..

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tuan zul, tuan man, puan zaza & tuan wong.

tadaaaa!!... but just to clear things up. we are not cops a.k.a police or whatever okeh. but i must admit we do look smart la kan.. sket la.. ala, bagi la chan nak up sket.. haiss..

just want to let you all know (i assume there IS someone out there, actually reading my posts) this might be the first and maybe the last. but we'll see.

This Is It. Ground '0'.. Life's Journey Has Just Begun.

so this is it. it actually is going to happen.

honestly right now i don't feel a thing. the excitement was, well, gone... hmm, not totally gone. still got a few excitement here and there but now i got a new 'feel'.. nervousness!!.. still cool though.. hehe..

i'd say the right word probably is.. 'worried'. yup. i can keep my head off of things that awaits me on my first day. damn. is my boss ok? colleagues ? what kind of work i do? can i cope? is it for the better? worse?? am i going to enjoy my new life?.. what will happened next? where do i go after this?.. what where who how which?..

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrggggggghhhhhhh!!!...

i am quite anxious right now. not knowing what will happen really frightens me. oh God!

i pray for today is going to be a good day if not for the best. for today will mark the day that my life is start afresh. ground zero.

make or break, there is no turning back. this is it. this is where it all began.

may Allah always be with me. Amin.

Puasa Di Selekoh Terakhir

pejam celik.. pejam celik.. aik, 3 more days left to fast!

3 more days and ramadhan is over. gosh.. how time fly. and i'm back to my hometown. home sweet home they say. a place of serene and peace.

so far this years ramadhan i did quite good in the terawih department. yup.. very good actually. i haven't miss a day. either berjemaah or sendirian kat bilik. either 8 or 20 rakaat.. yet.. BUT.. it may come to a halt starting tomorrow. because starting tomorrow i will be helping my in-law selling some stuff at a bazaar. and i may be required to stay for the night a.k.a sleep there.. i was determine to complete it this year. its just gonna be 2 more nights left!..

we will see la how it goes. aku nak jugak!. tak kira! lagi 2 malam ni.. ishk!.. i'll do it at the booth la kot after most of them are asleep. but the manner in which how would i do it remains uncertain. hmm..

i also can't wait to meet my long lost friends. if not everyone, meeting some of them is good enough. can't believe some still remember me even it has been like.. nearly 17 or 18 years since primary school! one other instances, i met *or date. she said date* a new acquaintance only once *a friend of a classmate in maktab* but she still remembers me now. and that meeting *or date* was way back in 1995-96.. she reckon it was the best ever. ya right.. with a few other classmates tagging along.. hahaha.. those were the days.. =)

some of my ex-colleagues during my jusco days -for those who work (group A)- starts their full shift beginning today. for those who are on leave (group B) - starts their holiday today.

it is still fresh in my memory. working full shift - 9:30am-11pm - for 5 days straight (minus the 1st day of raya where we started work at 12pm) while manpower also were depleted in half! sometimes i swipe out at 12am or more if it was my turn to do supermarket closing. it was so tiring.

and it was more tiring in 2007 *my 2nd time working during raya* because i was the ONLY section leader working on that day. luckily there were also six management trainees (5 of them manage other dept. their section leader were on holiday la. mane lagi..) working. plus my line manager and our selling floor assistant manager. *both were non-muslim so they were not in any group*.

really miss those days though. even sometimes the tiredness was unbearable but there were some things we just can't forget. the happy moments in life. wish i could feel it again.

me and ani a.k.a cik rahmaniah. one of my MT's. the other one cuti.

me and maarof. my ex-staff while i was an SL at daily & dairy. photo taken after work near staff entrance.

i have to sleep early because i have to wake up early tomorrow..err..i mean today. but.. i am just not sleepy yet.. ish.. i'm very the dead meat.

Orang Insurans Bagi

i received 5 diary from the insurans company. 5! 1 i already gave pakcik guard. so there are 4 more in my possession. donno what to do with it yet. maybe give to some friends. tenglok la macam mana.

calender? banyak siot!.. there are maybe lots more back at the storeroom. from islamic. spesis besar sket yang gantung kat dinding.

spesis letak atas meja i got a few.

i think i'm going to put all of it around the house. maybe inside the toilet pun letak. to remind me that time flies fast..

;-)

Sepah!

what a mess! there seems to be a lot of work this week.

after 2 weeks of.. cuti.. kerja 2 hari.. cuti lg.. kerja sehari.. weekends.. or simply 10 not-working days in the space of 16 days. so naturally work will pilled up. damn!

still have holiday hangover.

yesterday went to bangi. almost. got briefing for something. but it rained at sri kembangan. took shelter at a restoren mamak just across the commuter station.

sms boss. told him i couldn't come. when the rain stopped i gerak khas pantas balik.

arrived at kepong. rained again. lagi lebat. took shelter, again, in front of maybank. took the opportunity to pay some bills. wait again. couldn't wait the rain to stop. so as soon as reda je, berdesup!.. balik.

clothes all wet. shiet man. nasib baik stokin dan yang inner wear tak basah.

yesterday call mom. talked to haris aka aish. talked gibberish. miss him. today called mom again. talked to haris aka aish again. gibberish all over again. still miss him.

Kepong-Denai Alam-Kepong-Bangi-Kepong

the route i used today. damn tired! i had to go to denai alam for roadshow. i don't know how to get to bangi from there so i figured that i go to kepong 1st for lunch. so i went. it has been a while since i dine at wak's. always my favourite spot for lunch. i arrived before office lunch time so i had alot of lauk to choose. heaven man..

i quickly ate my lunch then around 1pm i went to bangi. i think my butt went numb from the journey. if not for the cumpulsory attendance, i'll be home sleeping or play some gamehouse. then i had to contend the journey back home. luckily it was not raining today. but nevertheless, my butt went numb again. oh hell..

Pasukan Sorak Bowling Hampeh

yesterday my company held a bowling tournament between all central region areas. and guess what i went there of course but not as a bowler, but as 1 of the cheer leading team. i was 'forced' or shall we say paksa rela. we were supposed to do some cheer to our area, like every other team. so we made 1 like every other team. and it turns out horribly wrong. i think we were the worst cheer team that day. but hey, everything was about having fun. so with a thick skin i did it and i'm having fun. they also gave hampers to the top 3 best cheerleading teams. so it double as a competition also la.

the performance was done after all the games had ended. so we got to see all the other team make a fool of themselves and all the staff from varoius areas and branches, plus some on-lookers and customers, got to laugh at our faces. well, it was hilarious!

well, the sad thing was we didn't win (in your dream). but we didn't went home empty handed. the consolation was 1 of our area 5 (AM5) team did managed to grab the 2nd runners-up trophy (a small one), plus one of the bowler from am5 bowled the 3rd highest individual score so he also received his prize. i didn't remember which team from which area won the competition but the overall winner was from area1 (AM1). congrats to them.

hahaha!: kak lini was laugh us off.. damn it!

central one: batik, gong, kompang. i thought they were doing dzikir barat.

the winner: can you believe this team was the winner? the just dance! better go to dance competition.

AM7: i think area 7 must be the breading ground of devil, ghost and satan.

AM5 is winning winning: you got to be kidding me?

fool's gold: we got to join some high ranking managers & officers doing some not so high act. hehe..

kipas-susah-mati: a toddler came to support us.. not! her mom forced her to join. if not, no cartoon network.

camouflage?: chloe and man was thinking they could hide themselves. but to no vail. tough luck..

blue is the colour: AM5 war zone.

Masih Kerja

i'm still working on monday. the feeling is excruciating! i'm already in festive mood right. so i think monday will be an acting day or hypocrite day. well depends. 

i can't wait to get back home. a place of serinity. a place of comfort and relaxation. in other words, heaven on earth for me. 

my boring days are just starting to take affect. starting today, either some people start to work full shift or they starts their journey balik kampung. hate being alone. but what to do. 

Komplen je

on wednesday, 9 July 2008, sambalkicap wrote:

today i had a meeting with ass. area manager of area 5. well, yet again, makan hati berulam jantung. i tried not to talk too much because its like you are wasting your spit.

and yet again i complained about the 'beating' i had today. i complain too much arent i? well, im so sorry. i need to take it out from my system.

and once again my bad days continued. i think 'having a bad day' is not a really suitable word anymore. because that day came so often that its not that particular anymore or as seldom as it should be. so i think this 'bad day' shouldnt be highlited or mentioned because it has already become a routine thingy.

there seems to be something 'bad' or 'not so good'or 'unlucky' or what ever you may called it, would happened to me every so often. i cant even manage to catch my breath.

so what should i do?

well, my friends, i'll just have to ride the wave babe. a loser's statement right? well, who give a damn anyway. i might get used to it. i might not. so, we'll see how it goes then.

will it ever end?

are you kidding me.. common bro. this is just the beginning. there are lots and lots more to come. so watch your back. expect the unexpected...

Bas Penuh

Tuesday, 8 July 2008. sambalkicap wrote:

today was one of those day where luck was not on my side.

on the way back to my office from meeting a customer at wangsa maju, i had to walk all the way from central market to a bus stop near bangunan mara. why? because i didnt know where i should take the bus ride to my office. i know which bus but i just didnt know where to wait for it in kl. damn far!

then later after work while i was waiting to catch the bus home, 2 different busses that were going to my place came at the same time. how lucky i am... NOT.. why? because BOTH busses were packed with passangers like a tin sardin. i mean, there were even some passangers standing at the door steps thus the door cant even be closed. it was that full! so, i just watched helplessly both busses past me by.

im so tired. im so frustrated. im so unlucky.

Khidmat Nasihat

i really miss the world wide web.

im really looking forward every week(ends) to have a time like this. this is my world. this is what i enjoy most. i once looking forward to my permanent rest day so that i can enjoy that day with someone. but time pass by. so this is my life now.

i had a very good advice today. a very good one infact from my colleague. he was like a big brother to me. about work, about people, about marriage. mostly from his experience as an employee since he was 18 years old and a married guy since 21 years old!

yup.. you heard me right. we called it the magic number. 21. why? coz at that age we are not a juvinile anymore and we can make our own decision (as far as the court is concern) and we can go straight to jail with 20 stroke of rottan or the death setence even (where applicable) if convicted with any felony. hehehe... so no rumah tunas bakti or henry gurney or what ever for you my friend. :-)

i learned a lot from him. especially about (current) work and marriage. thanx bro. just imagine his eldest children is 10 years old and he is only 32! so you can imagine the degree of sacrifices that he had done. things that people like us wont even dare think, let alone commit. i have totally huge respect for this guy.

actually i had wrote something in my notepad while i was a public transport person. but i keep forgeting it. well, maybe next time.

Lokasi.. Lokasi.. Lokasi

i thought i heard it so many times. location is one of the main factors on the road to success. but yesterday was a different story.

it was my first roadshow. dengan bestnye they gave us a target of 20 application for each product we sell. and guest how many customers we get?
zero.. none.. kosong.. takde sekor pun.. nothing.. hampeh!

why?

because all the supposedly experience, clever, 'ottai', very good central processing unit, somewhere in the upper ancheleon of area 5 suggested that we do a roadshow at a place to received and send parcel on weekends instead of weekdays where the customers were almost non-existant and the staff were barely awake or dying of boredness.

there was even a statement saying that it will be busy around noon when the fact that one employee said that it would be the case ONLY if it's on weekdays. how wonderful is that! all said and done. i think these people ought to learn more about marketing. not that i'm saying that i'm cleverer than they are but i think my common sense is much better. i mean just use your logic bro. Logic..

Gosh! egos are everywhere..

Hari Malang

today is officially the suckest and most fucked-up day of my work life, to date. i wont forget what happened to me in the boss office. in front of my fellow colleagues. who did he think i am? what do you expect? a messiah? or maybe and angel sent from heaven to save his soul (bonus+increment) from the devil (high budget+area manager) so that the world (damn personal life) can live in peace and harmony?

Fuck you la!!..


im no angel, superman, underdog (the movie), batman, spiderman, hollow man, or whatever fucking superhero that can do a lot of things in a blink of an eye.

what an irony right.. i just "best wishes" him the other day. well, human change.

Kek Hari Jadi

last monday was my boss's birthday. but he was on leave that day. so my assistant boss decided to make a simple birthday cum fathers day celebration the next morning. we had chess cake and nasi lemak. the nasi lemak was good and the blueberry chess cake was even better. secret recipe ma.

best wishes from me boss..

Kira Stok

last monday, 28th may, was my last monthly stock take day. and coincidently we were counting my department's stock. i have great, and not so great memories about stock take day. whether it was monthly or annually. but all were in good heart. the good one i keep. the not so good one i also keep. because it was one of those things that you couldnt possibly forget (unless you have amnesia).

i'll miss the tension. the sweat. the tiredness. the going home late. the wrong counting. the 'brapa banyak lagi?', 'dah abis kira?'. the laughing. the fun. the mockery. the foolishness. the swearing. the 'fuck'ing. etc.. just imagine, one of it was finished at 4:30am-arrived home at 5:00am-slept at 6:00am-woke up at 8:30am-strated work at 9:30am. its insane!

especially the annual and bi-annual where the tension was the highest every year. it was a hell of experience for me. something that i could tell (brag!) my friends, kids or even my grandkids (if i have any).

i'llm miss everything..

Makan Malam Tahunan

last tuesday, 8th april 2008, we had our annual dinner at dewan merdeka, PWTC. everybody was in morning shift and everyone leaves at 6pm coz the event starts at 8pm. well, how do i sum it? crazy, ok and not ok.

the crazy part: i put on a show! yup, you heard me right. well not alone la of course. i dont know what got into me. but suddenly i was involved in it. gosh! until this day i still couldn't believed myself. we did dancing. two songs in fact! can u believe that?
i did make up! arrrghh!!! i wore foundation, compact powder, a bit of lipstick (but not the shiny bright red one la), hairspray, mascara, red colour hair dye! you named it. ive got it all. what have i done?! muahaha!! now i know what being an artist felt like. its just crazy.

this is one in a life time only experience. im having the time of my life.

the ok part: food. the food is quite nice. we had chinese cuisine. soup, veg, fish, prawn. actually one dish was not enough for 10 person per table. but anyway its a nice

the x ok part: at the end of the dinner they promised us music to get jiggy. but to our horror the DJ did nothing. they just played some stupid number with low volume. we tried pleading to them to pls play some music. but all went on deaf ears. those stupid fucking shit DJ's. i am really frustrated coz i've been waiting for it the whole night.

so, the verdict. its a fun night. not entirely perfect but still i enjoyed it very much. some memories are just passing by but some will stay for as long as we can remember.

and this will surely stay.

Kerja Baru?

this afternon i went to get my offer letter from the company that offered me the new job la ofcourse. honestly, im not sure. im not sure if i took the right step. you know, taking this job. crossing career path. going into the unkown for me. i dont know. should i go on with it? i still have a choice to back away la. but..

i need to do something with my life. i dont want to stay at my present environment untill, what, forever?! i have nothing to lose now. i need to improve my life la... arrghh!! i must be brave.. must! i need to leave my comfort zone, that give me nothing, and venture to the unknown and take risk. who knows it might be better. nobody knows. but if i didnt take the first step, i'll never know. right?

gosh! once inside, here's no turning back. god, am i for real?.. it must be, coz if not then im in big troble.

Penat

Last week was hell! Well.. almost. It was one of those days where you work like you were going to lose a limb. People go beserk when they heard the word "sale" or "members day". They shop like there's no tomorrow! The preparation, the actually day. Woke up as early as 7am. went back at around 1pm. Gosh! I don't know why i'm still working there.

Like my father always said, there is no job that is an easy job. Even those pushers and pimps have their own risk, highs and lows. But then again, maybe the time has come. I don't know. Wish there is a silver lining. Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.