Cukup Seh..

i did it this year. completed my terawih every night. well, some nights i did 8. some i did 20. some did 8 first berjemaah then continued the rest at home. a few nights did 20 at home. a few nights i did only 8 at home. including tonight.

because i was so tired. i was very tak larat. but nevertheless managed to terawih after arrived at home at 3am!

today *morning* i have to get up early. help my family first. help my family cleaned up the house or do whatever is necessary. then at around 1pm or 2pm have to go start work again at the bazaar. last day of puasa. konfem ramai org!.. aaarghh!.. gonna be super duper tired. because we have to pack everything and simpan. estimated completion time - 3am!.. aaarrgghh! di pagi raya plak tuh.. :(

Penat Macam Nak Patah Pinggang

extremely tired!

i was working yesterday.. yup. you herd me right. =) i'm back in kuching and yesterday i started helping with my ipar at the bazaar ramadhan selling shoes n t-shirts. to name a few. i was there at around 11am++ and finished worked around maybe 1am++. that was around 14 hours or work! i have 2 more days here. sigh! i'm a salesman once more.. haha!

i brings back memories while i working at the supermarket days. working from 9.30am until 11pm or 12am. it has been a long time since i felt the same tiredness. extreme tiredness. felt like my hips were dislocated.. =)

just wants to earn extra money and also wanted to feel what it is like to be a bazaar trader. and i got to taste it yesterday. first hand! boy what an experience it was! i enjoyed it every bit. even the tiredness ;)

now i'm back at the one of the stall (they have 2 stalls). my turn to stay on guard for the night. yes, i'm actually sleeping at the bazaar!.. it's gonna be a loooooong day today. and tomorrow.

p/s: still managed to do terawih albeit on my own while i was at home just now to take a few things. including my notebook. hehe.. 1 more terawih night to go!

Puasa Di Selekoh Terakhir

pejam celik.. pejam celik.. aik, 3 more days left to fast!

3 more days and ramadhan is over. gosh.. how time fly. and i'm back to my hometown. home sweet home they say. a place of serene and peace.

so far this years ramadhan i did quite good in the terawih department. yup.. very good actually. i haven't miss a day. either berjemaah or sendirian kat bilik. either 8 or 20 rakaat.. yet.. BUT.. it may come to a halt starting tomorrow. because starting tomorrow i will be helping my in-law selling some stuff at a bazaar. and i may be required to stay for the night a.k.a sleep there.. i was determine to complete it this year. its just gonna be 2 more nights left!..

we will see la how it goes. aku nak jugak!. tak kira! lagi 2 malam ni.. ishk!.. i'll do it at the booth la kot after most of them are asleep. but the manner in which how would i do it remains uncertain. hmm..

i also can't wait to meet my long lost friends. if not everyone, meeting some of them is good enough. can't believe some still remember me even it has been like.. nearly 17 or 18 years since primary school! one other instances, i met *or date. she said date* a new acquaintance only once *a friend of a classmate in maktab* but she still remembers me now. and that meeting *or date* was way back in 1995-96.. she reckon it was the best ever. ya right.. with a few other classmates tagging along.. hahaha.. those were the days.. =)

some of my ex-colleagues during my jusco days -for those who work (group A)- starts their full shift beginning today. for those who are on leave (group B) - starts their holiday today.

it is still fresh in my memory. working full shift - 9:30am-11pm - for 5 days straight (minus the 1st day of raya where we started work at 12pm) while manpower also were depleted in half! sometimes i swipe out at 12am or more if it was my turn to do supermarket closing. it was so tiring.

and it was more tiring in 2007 *my 2nd time working during raya* because i was the ONLY section leader working on that day. luckily there were also six management trainees (5 of them manage other dept. their section leader were on holiday la. mane lagi..) working. plus my line manager and our selling floor assistant manager. *both were non-muslim so they were not in any group*.

really miss those days though. even sometimes the tiredness was unbearable but there were some things we just can't forget. the happy moments in life. wish i could feel it again.

me and ani a.k.a cik rahmaniah. one of my MT's. the other one cuti.

me and maarof. my ex-staff while i was an SL at daily & dairy. photo taken after work near staff entrance.

i have to sleep early because i have to wake up early tomorrow..err..i mean today. but.. i am just not sleepy yet.. ish.. i'm very the dead meat.

Brrpp.. Alhamdulillah..

see the pic on your right?

that was my juadah berbuka puasa.. hehe.. ;)

it wasn't much but enough la for me. thankfully my housemate got back home so we break fasting together-gether la.. and i also ate 1 curry puff@karipap ajak gave. btw, i'm lucky he was at home because his fiancee balik kampung. if not pun i break fast alone gak.

1st day of fasting. so far so good.

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak 1430 Hijrah

today is.. 1st ramadhan 1430H.

it's the time of the year again. the holly month. when muslims around the world fast from dawn until the sun sets. fasting is meant to teach all muslims patience, modesty and spirituality. so all you guys, ready or not *you have no choice* must practice self-refrains from putting any sorts of food into your mouth, chew it n swallow it!.. saya ulangi refrain, tahan, kekang, hindar etc.. ada paham?..

for me, ramadhan month is also like a time machine. because it brings back memories. fond memories during my.. err.. heyday!.. haha..

even if it was years back. i could still remember it like yesterday. the good times. work, friends, loved ones, life as a whole.. ahh.. i can still smell the happiness. life was good at that time. break fast together at work in our backroom or at nearby mamak and there was nobody attending the selling floor!.. haha :) i smile a lot those days.

that was years back.

this year..well.. doesn't aspect it to be much different from last year.

iklan:
one particular funny thing happened after sahur. it made me laugh and really smile from ear to ear.. hahaha.. pagi-pagi subuh dah wat lawak. 1st day pose lak tuh.. ;))

aku ngantok jadi cerah mate tergelak.. :) see what i mean? she is really something isn't she.. ;)

continue:
i really don't care anymore, thinking about what to buy or what to eat for breaking fast. just don't have the excitement anymore. entah-entah i break fast alone today, the 1st day of ramadhan.. huhu.. *because ajak just left to fetch his sis and going to the bazaar*.

but actually i am also thankful. i'm hoping this ramadhan i would smile often... *often, not everytime eh*.. why? ade laaa!.. mane leh g tau!.. abis semua nak suap.. ceh.

last but not least, i would like to take this opportunity to wish my family, friends and all muslims in the world selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan. i pray that all the good deeds we do or did in this holly month will always be blessed by Allah.

ramadhan month is not only a time of worshiping the Al-Mighty, but also a time of reflection. i wish all of you a very good fasting month and always remember... patience is a virtue.. :)

Penghujung Ramadhan, Merindui Ketenangan

today is the last day of the holly month of ramadhan. muslims around the world will fast and did the terawih prayer for the last time this year. time fly us by without us realised it. by tomorow a celebration will begin. 

i will begin my journey back to my home town. oh how i miss it so much. i need this break. i need something to ease my mind. something that could rejuvinate me. something where i could just relax and be myself. 

when the going gets taugh, sometimes we need a place to cool down. and no other place is better then a place we call home. no clients, no customers, no work, no deadline, no targets, no budgets, no tension, no frustration, no tiredness, or everything that we can relate to work. just the sofa, the food, the laptop and the astro. and the live football. 

honestly saying i think this ramadhan is the best yet for me since i arrived here. not in terms of my life or the fasting itself but in things like prayers. the 5-times-a-day prayer or terawih prayer or the doa i had been asking from God. i didn't say that i did every prayer everyday. well, there were still some 'holes' here and there. but at least i did better than last year. especially in the terawih section. maybe to some people i'm just a lousy muslim. but i'm proud of myself. maybe it is just a very small step. but a very meaningful one. this time around, i also berdoa a lot to God. i'm the one that people call 'sudah terhantuk'. the wound is big and it was bleeding profusely. hopefully it was for the better.

but make no mistake. this ramadhan is definitely the toughest one to date in terms of my personal life. only God and a few person knows what i'm talking about. 

today around noon, i will start my journey back home. hopefully i will arrive early at the airport because today is the last day of ramadhan and the balik kampung exodus are definitely not over yet. it's far from over. and hopefully (again) my trip would not be hit with any serious snag along the way. 

i do really mention a lot, words like hope and journey didn't i? well, that is what i need and my life right now. a journey full of hopes. that is the only few things i have left now. 

i'll be coming home soon. goodbye ramadhan. i'll sure miss you so much.

Kenyang Di Marche

-some of the evidence on display-

delicious. one word that sums it all. damn tasty! i went to berbuka puasa at marche. courtesy  of an angel. thank you darling. this time around i get to EAT there. not merely a guest of the guests. i get to taste all the delicious delicacies offered that night. it was simply marvelous. my taste buds cant even have the time to breath, if it has a nose. 

unfortunately i'm not worth the money if someone wants to treat me a buffet. because i'm not what i was 1 or 2 years back. but if someone insist, then rezeki jangan di tolak. of all the dishes, my favourite was the oyster. God it tasted so good i don't even know how to describe it. but i just manage to take the last 2. damn! 

i don't even remember when was the last time i really enjoy eating. this is not the place where we can go often you know. worth every cents. maybe someday i could bring my family here. someday.

Ramadhan Al Mubarak 1429 Hijrah

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hari ini 1 Ramadhan 1429.

bulan Ramadhan kembali semula menjengah kita. sekejap saja masa berlalu. tapi kali ini suasananya amat berbeza untuk aku. banyak yang aku terkenangkan ketika ramadhan. yang paling aku tak boleh nak lupa, aku eksiden masa balik dari berbuka puasa. langgar anjing pulak tuh! sakitnya tuhan je yang tau. ngeri beb.. terpelanting macam superman. jatuh atas jalan dan terseret kejap. ouch!..

ada lagi bekas luka kat pinggang aku ni. besar gak la. hampir jahanam skutut aku. bekal yang aku dapat untuk bersahur entah ke mana. mud guard depan dah tertanggal. handle bengkok. cover depan motor pecah sebelah tepi kiri. tangan kiri aku tak dapat nak berfungsi dengan elok sebab aku landing sebelah kiri badan. aku guna tangan aku untuk perlahankan impact masa jatuh. tapi lepas tu nak genggam pun sakit. susah nak buat kerja. itu la pengalaman eksiden yang agak ngeri la sepanjang hidup aku setakat nie.

apa cerita anjing tu?.. entah lah. mampos kot. aku pun tak tau. sebab aku tengah shock dan kesakitan. tak ada masa nak fikir pasal menatang tu. kesian gak la kan. ni la akibat nya bergurau tak kena tempat. pastu lintas jalan tak tengok kiri kanan. malang tak berbau. aku plak yang jadi mangsa.

ramadhan ni boleh dikatakan i'm on my own. aku tak biasa tapi aku tak ada pilihan. sedih. tapi nak buat macam mana. bak kata forest gump, "life is like a box of choclate. you never know what you're gonna get". well, it's true.

kuih muih: staf kat ofis aku rajin buat makan petang sebelum balik kerja. salah 1 juadah di suatu petang.

menjelang ramadhan biasanya banyak dugaan yang akan kita lalui. salah satunya tengok orang bukan Islam makan di siang hari + iklan makan yang bersepah kat tv dan newspaper. or kena tahan mata dari tengok yang seksi-seksi. or tak boleh mencarut kang pahala kena potong.. :-) dan untuk aku pula, dugaannya akan jadi lebih sikit. aku kena harunginya dengan hati yang ditelah ditebat tebal dengan apa saja yang aku ada supaya emosi susah nak masuk. sebab terlalu banyak kenangan aku di bulan ramadhan tahun-tahun yang sudah.

aku tak sanggup nak imagine apa yang bakal aku lalui tapi aku sebenarnya selalu berdoa dan berharap semuanya akan cepat berlalu. bukan aku tak suka bulan yang mulia ni tapi takut jadi perit sangat. so dugaan tahun ni sangat berat. mungkin Tuhan nak ajar aku atas kesalahan aku yang tinggi menggunung waktu dahulu. pasrah je la yang aku mampu.

aku ada tekad aku sendiri tahun ni. aku nak jadikan ramadhan tahun ni lebih baik dari ramadhan aku tahun lepas. kalau tak banyak, sikit pun jadilah. tak banyak pahala, sikit pun boleh la kan. daripada kosong. ready or not here it comes. aku kena banyak bersabar. banyak-banyak bersabar.

last but not least, aku ingin mengucapkan Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan 1429 Hijrah kepada semua umat Islam terutamanya di malaysia. mudah-mudahan ibadat anda semua diberkati dan dirahmati Allah SWT. Amin.