Mimpi Mainan Tidur

i had a dream yesterday. and still remember it quite well.

ironically just a few days back i read a q&a article about a dream this fellow had. the answer he get was:

"Mimpi adalah permainan tidur. Kebanyakan daripada mimpi ini berlaku hasil daripada khayalan, imaginasi manusia tentang sesuatu hal dan gambaran yang terdapat padanya sesuatu yang amat diingini atau ditakutinya... Jarang sangat yang berlaku dalam mimpi itu mewakili yang sah ataupun yang sebenar.
...Mimpi-mimpi yang benar ini adalah suatu yang amat jarang berlaku. Kadang-kadangnya dilihat sebagai benar, tetapi jika diteliti sebenarnya ia tidak."

the statement was by dato' dr. haron din.

maybe because of the unexpected message i received last week and all those memories rushing through my head like a waterfall.

thus, maybe the unexpected dream of her was some sort of a continuity of event triggered by something unexpected that maybe would last for some unspecified time. even when we thought a few days has gone by and we should be ok. oh how wrong i am.

i really hate dreams that connects you with your past. in my situation it makes me sadder. because it gives you false feelings.

dreams felt like somewhat real aren't they? i would rather not dream during my sleep. i want an 'empty' sleep. i sleep and then i wake up. nothing in between.

because even a so called happy dreams can make you suffer. suffering equals pain. pain equals sadness.

like dato' haron din said, dreams are rarely the truth. sometimes it felt like the real thing, but when we look closely, it actualy were not.