Michael Jackson, 'King of Pop,' dead at 50 (2nd update)
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So Fake!
6 years ago
Nak Jumpa Hang Tuah.. Punya Kampung
"hehehehey hang jebahat.."
"lebih baik kau turun.."
"kalau kau tak mo turun.."
"ko tunggu sampai aku datang.."
am going to melaka. can't wait. quite excited. never been there. in the city. attend a friend's wedding.
my parent also will be coming home from umrah today. can't catch them at the airport though. terkilan sket. but a promise has been made. have to keep going with the plan.
a good time to keep my mind off things. wish i could go further. like maybe england, korea or brazil. like my friends did. no, really, they actually went there. but i'll settle for melaka lah.
so melaka, don't you go anywhere. here i come!
Kebetulan Yang Memeritkan
WHY is it when some very significant event happened to me, it seems that nobody is around?
it always happened during which i needed companionship at the most. EVERYTIME!
a friend gone balik jb. the other one are on his way to a friend's wedding in sg. petani. these are the only two people that are 'accessible' to hang out with or just lepaking. but both are not available on the same day when i needed them the most!..
perfect coincidence right?.. yeah.. what a perfect coincidence.
enough said.
Satu lagi Episod Dalam Hidup Ku
the sadness is almost unbearable. i need to talk to some. i'm going crazy. it's already midnight. i need to talk to somebody. who am i going to call in the middle of the night?.. fuck!..
eventually i text my sister. not knowing who's picture i send her she called me back. then hell broke loose again. not my sister, but me..
kesian kakak. she tried her best to console me. she is the best sister ever.
i'm totally out and numb.
at this moment of time. sekarang ni, minit ni, saat ni.. aku really wish i have no feeling what so ever. aku wish aku ni seorang yang langsung takde perasaan. yang tak berperasaan. hati kering. hati keras. call it anything you want. kejam. jadi macam batu kayu besi dinding.
sebab kalau tak jadi macam sekarang ni. sedih, bercelaru, murung, lemah.. segala-galanya ada. aku dah tak boleh gambarkan.
sebenarnya this past week my mood was quite good. sampai aku sendiri terdesar eh, seems like aku happy je. aku tak fikir banyak. tengok final bola. dua-dua game menang. sampai aku kata mungkin Allah nak bagi aku happy. sampai macam tu sekali aku terasa my mood was pretty good. tapi di hati kecil aku bersyukur. dengan menaruh harapan dapat bertahan lama.
rupanya.. aku silap.. lagi..
aku risau kalau tetiba aku terasa happy. i'm really worried when things goes my way! because it seems.. not right. strange but true. and guess what. IT'S TRUE.
dah pukul 3:22 AM. aku nak keluar kejap kot.. hari dah malam. dah nak pagi subuh pun.
ish.. sedih nya aku. macam nana nak bagi hilang ah?.. macam mana?..
HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW???!!!
I HATE THIS FUCKING FEELING! FUCKING HATE IT!
Bahaya Jadi Insomnia nih..
i was 2 hours short of NOT sleeping in 24 hours yesterday. still it was a worrying trend. i don't know. i just couldn't sleep!
actually, this was my 3rd time in a little more than 2 weeks i've been like this. the 2nd time i was awake was like for 25 hours. i think it was last monday.
ape dah jadik ngan aku nih?! gosh..
Selamat Hari Gawai 2009
gayu guru gerai nyamai. minum tuak.. mabuk kita.. yey!.. hehe..
i never knew what it meant. the minum tuak thing i just added it myself.
anyway, today is the 1st june 2009 and its gawai dayak day to most of dayak people in sarawak. i nearly forget about it. you know lah kan, unless you are in sarawak or you tune in to rtm, you'll tend to forget that there are two more festive holiday in malaysia. the other one would be pesta keamatan celebrated in sabah.
to all dayak people in malaysia, i wish you selamat hari gawai dayak. iboh minum tuak banyak gilak.. hehe..
have fun and happy holiday!
