Aku = Loser

bloody loser.

why do i always did the wrong things?.. scared people away.

demmit..

sometimes i don't know what to do with myself anymore. my only intention was just to cheer. but even that was a bad move :(

so sorry.

tried to do the right thing. tried not to sound like a jerk. but i blew it all away. stupid!.. i sucks at these kind of thing.

this is what you get when you are 'polluted'. what ever good your intentions are, you are bound to do mistakes. that mistakes will cost you dearly.

even when you are not the person you once was. even when you are trying hard to improve yourself to be a good person. i want to be good. i really do.

until i found that.. wait.. i am not allowed to search for it. because when ever i found them, i made mistakes again. so the right sentence is, until they are GIVEN to me.

i'm beginning to loose faith. i'm close to stop believing.