Selamat Hari Merdeka

today is 31 august 2008.

i would like to all Malaysian a happy independence day today. lets us pray for the harmony, peace and stability will last forever. Amin.

i just stayed home at the stroke of midnight with my friend. watching a dvd movie. not to say that we were unpatriotic. but we're just 2 lazy bum that just couldn't imagine ourselves going through the hassle of kl's traffic congestion. and also the possibility of raining tonight (guess i'm wrong because now its already 2am and its not raining outside). but we did went out just now for a while. to have our dinner and bought a couple of dvds at my usual shop. then back home. and that's it.

well, happy merdeka day again. and today is the last day before fasting month begin. yup.. its the time of the year again. the holy month will start tomorrow. wether we're prepared or not its coming to us. ;-)

Wigan 0 - 1 Chelsea, Sayonara Beijing

yup.. they did it again. Chelsea maintain their good start of the season by beating wigan with a single goal. courtesy from a superb free kick by deco. he's on fire bebeh!.. i just managed to watched the 2nd half of the match. this 1 uncle want tot watch the closing ceremony of beijing olympic. Chelsea is THE Best!.. muahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

well, today is the last day for beijing olympic. china is on top of the medal ranking. thus the overall champs for this edition. congrats to them. sooo.. when will be malaysia's turn to organise the biggest sports even on the planet? hmm.. wishfull thinking. not imposible. but for the time being, considering our country's sports achievement, hmm.. nevermind..

Hujan Yang Turun

rain. most of the time, its a blessing. sometimes its a wrath from The One. it brings relief or joy to some people but it also can bring tears or sorrow to others. either way, dont complained. just hope for the best. not for the worst.

suddenly it reminds me of a song by sudirman entitled hujan.

Hujan yang turun bagaikan mutiara
Berkilau bersinar berkerdipan
Subur menghijau bumi terbentang
Dan bayu berpuput lembut

Cinta yang bersemi
Diwaktu hujan turun
Menyirami ketandusan hati
Dan hujan turut mengiringi
Engkau pergi...

Selembut hujan bercurahan
Begitulah cinta ini
Semesra bumi yang disirami
Begitulah hati ini

Hujan yang turun bersama air mata
Bersama pedih, bersama rindu
Kau datang dan kau pergi jua
Rindu lagi...

it rains almost everyday this week. including today. i was planning to go jalan-jalan but boy was i frustrated. so reluctantly i stayed home the whole day. doing nothing. well maybe did some washing, playing pc games, moving around the house, turn on the tv but didnt watch at all. the usual stuff. so i've wasted this day doing nothing (by my standard).

tomorrow is working day. again. how time past us by so quickly. cant wait for the next weekends. (already? ;-) i bought 4 dvd but i havent watch all of it. well, i watched 2 but only for like not more than 30 minutes each for the last 2 nights. sadly my eyes let me down. grrr...

oh well, maybe tonight i'll watch 1 until it finishes. hopefully.

Raja Pecut Dunia

this guy is fast. no. let me rephrase. this guy is fucking fast! he's a speed demon! usain bolt. a name that i never have heard of before until he broke asafa powell 's 100m world record. and suddenly he was the king of sprint.

i am the king!: bolt posed besides his new world record time for 100m print event.

see ya sucker!: he was way infront of everyone as he crosses the finishing line.

firstly, he broke his own world 100m record. he even managed to slow down and thumped his chest in enroute to the finish line and STILL broke the world record. damn this guy was fast!
secondly, he won the 200m race and at the same time, broke micheal johson's previous world record by 0.02s faster. insane! this is madness..

this dude is unbelievable.

i am the king!.. again!: bolt beside his world record time in 200m event final.

huf.. huf..: other runners could only smell his fart. no challenge at all. kacang la beb..

Binatang

These few days i stumble upon a few lovely animal and i took the opportunity to take some pictures of them in action. just want to share it with err.. whom ever it may concern.

afternoon nap: i stumble upon this mother and kitten cat having a nap while i was choosing my lauk for lunch at kg baru.

posing baik: this canary was on show at one utama.

yum! yum!: maybe he's hungry.. really hungry..

Jangan Ada Ruang Untuk Penyesalan

as i was reading my sunday newspaper i came across a q&a in starmag under the heart & soul section, page 24. nevermind the question. the answer was what matter most. thelma wrote:

"whose face do you see when you think about the future? do you want to feel safe, familiar and acceptable? or do your prefer a relationship with someone who could make you feel loved, warmed and tender?

some women prefer practical predictability to wild heartbeat and passion. its a choice each individual has to make. and neither is right nor wrong. many of us walk through life passively and safely. some of us prefer adventures, risk and excitement. ultimately, its what we are that makes the difference.

some say love, passion and romance will fizzle out after marriage. some swear to great love and joy for a lifetime. most of us pretend that all is well. when pushed into a corner, we blame, cry and walk away yelling "foul"...

...be honest, sincere and rational if you can. it's never easy making choice when your heart is being pulled from different directions and your mind confuse.

...in time, you will have to make a choice. just do not leave room for regret"

just do not leave room for regret.

Selamat Pengantin Baru

i want to wish Selamat Pengantin Baru to my friend Norhaslinda Ismail and her hubby Abdullah Ab. Shukor on their wedding day last saturday, august 16, 2008 . sorry i couldnt stay longer because i had to send my friend back home. i couldnt be happier for you on your special day. i wish both of you the best in everything. may both of you live happily ever after.

all set: the ceremony was about to start.

walking down the isle: the bride and groom were paraded to the pelamin.

destiny: on the stage waiting for the tepung tawar ceremony.

Amin.

Chelsea 4 - 0 Portsmouth

english premier league officially start yesterday. and today is Chelsea's first game under the new coach luis felipe scolari or better known as big phil. what a great start to the season as Chelsea trash portsmouth 4-0 at stamford bridge. a goal each from joe cole, anelka, lampard and deco.

poor portsmouth. just last week they lost to man utd in carling cup final from panalties after extra time. well, what to do. life sucks.. hehehe..

i just watched the game and chelsea was awesome! they dominated the game. occasionally portsmouth did threatened once in a while but chelsea's solid defence stood firm untill the end of the match. i went down late to the mamak downstairs. just as i arrived there, anelka headed in the 2nd goal. magnificiento! the rest is history.

waarggh!: joe cole's reaction after scoring his and chelsea's first goal of the 2008/2009 season.

2nd goal: lampard scored from the penalty spot.

originally i thought i'd stay home and watched olympic badminton final between lee chong wei and lin dan. because i thought no mamak would screen a football match because the hot topic everyone talked about today was the badminton final and because i thought every mamak would only screen the badminton match. but i just tried my luck. and wallah! there was a mamak screening chelsea vs portsmouth game. so i just sit there. ordered a teh o limau panas and sit there untill the match ended.

not that i'm not patriotic. but i guess i just love to watch a football game. no offence to all malaysian. i wish lee chong wei all the best. malaysia boleh! (ermm.. btw, he lost the final. i just herd the news.)

well, i hope this is the beginning of a wonderful and prosper year for chelsea. and i wish chelsea will win the epl crown and ofcourse the elusive champions league trophy.

CHELSEA! CHELSEA! Chelsea Boleh!

yeeeeeeaaaaahhhhhh!!

Selamat Hari Jadi Namleys

HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY !

today, 11 august 2008, is the day you are getting 1 year older. happy 27th years oooooooold..

happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you.

saya doakan panjang umur dah murah rezeki.. semoga kebahagian kekal hingga ke akhir hayat...

Amin.

this song is for you.

08.08.08

today is 8th of august 2008, or

08.08.08

this is a special number for the chinese community because they believe the number 8 brings good luck (i think). for other people its the uniqueness of the date itself that makes it stand out. like 07.07.07 (last year) or 09.09.09 (next year).

so, its not unusual that a lot of special event took place today. im not particularly sure but i think the busiest person today is tok kadi's, father's, sami's or what ever they call them. yup, a lot of couples are getting married today (or already married by now). just this afternoon, soon after i finished my friday prayer, a group of people including the bride & the bridegroom to-be was seen entering a small hall at the mosque for akad nikah. so the tok imam(s) would probably be the busiest man today. i think our prime minister was way behind in terms of busy-ness. :-)

also today is the opening of the olympic games in beijing. the president of IOC is making a speech right now as i type this blog to officiate the opening of the olympic games. and not surprisingly they choose today as the special day. they really have this cool-ass stadium that they call bird's nest and this cool-ass aquatic stadium for the swimming events.

Beijing Olympic 2008: this is this year's olympic logo.

"The beautiful architectural monstrosity is a testimony to China’s love for “biomimicry”; a pseudo term that references large massive buildings modeled after nature. The Olympic stadium is shaped like a bird’s nest with intertwining metal girders that resemble gentle chopsticks—and is symbolic of China’s political volatility and complex nature. In just a couple of months, China will attempt to unravel the bird’s nest of political and environmental problems to show to the world that buried deep within the nest, are the golden eggs of this country’s true beauty." - offthechang.wordpress.com/

Aquatic Stadium? : architectural genius. or simply, a kick-ass stadium!

Olympic Medals: cool!

Olympic Torch: super cool!

i also dont want to be left out in making something for this date. actually i dont know what to do nor do i have anything specific in mind. so i thought i'd write a blog on this date. jadilah kan. hehe..

What is Happiness, Happy?

bahagia. kebahagiaan.

apakah yang sebenarnya yang dimaksudkan dengan kebahagiaan? apakah definisi bahagia? dimanakah kita boleh mencari bahagia? sesetengah manusia tidak ada masalah dengan kebahagiaan. tapi ada sebahagian pula tidak bernasib baik dengan kebahagian.

aku ingin sangat tahu apakah sebenarnya definisi bahagia? kebahagiaan? kebahagiaan yang hakiki adalah cinta kepada Allah SWT. itu aku tahu. maksud aku cinta, sayang terhadap sesuatu perkara, barang, benda, manusia, haiwan, apa saja. boleh kah kita bahagia kerana cinta, sayang? atau, walaupun kedua-duanya ada tidak semestinya kita akan mengecap kebahagiaan.

kenapa?

cinta? ada.. sayang? ada.. bahagia?.. tak.. aik, macam mana tu?.. mana mungkin boleh tak bahagia.

aku tak faham.. tak faham... betul-betul tak faham. kadang-kadang cinta, sayang ada tapi yang datang merana, sengsara. mana perginya bahagia? kenapa tak bahagia walupun dah sayang sepenuh hati, dah cinta sehingga ke mati, lautan api sanggup ku renangi?

why?

adakah ini yang kita panggil kehidupan? atau dengan lebih tepat lagi, dugaan?.. adussss.. pening.. pening!!! aku tak boleh tersalah cakap. aku tak boleh tersalah kata. binasa. kang tak pasal-pasal aku kena panah petir. sebab bila kita frust, tertekan, tension, sengsara, kita persoalkan "kenapa?".. lepas tu kita marah dengan yang Maha Esa sebab kenapa kita? kenapa terlalu hebat? sampai tak tertanggung bahu, kepala.. tak termampu nak berdiri. kaki lemah. kepala melilau. badan tak bermaya. putus asa.

kenapa aku tak boleh bersama orang yang aku sayang? baru aku tahu erti sebenar sengsara. selama ini aku hanya sebut-sebut, baca, dengar. tapi rupanya... dasyat! jangan sebut kalau tak pernah rasa. setakat sengsara menahan nafsu nak makan kfc, aku terajang kang.

aku sedih. :'-(

jantung ni bagaikan nak berhenti berdegup. selama ini aku mengharap. walau banyak sudah petanda aku dapat. tapi aku degil. aku melawan. aku buat tak tau. aku buat tak paham. aku tak peduli. mungkin sebab aku menaruh harap. aku berharap. maybe, just maybe there is some kind of hope? even a little? tiny teenie weenie? seciput ke? sebesar zarah ke?

tapi kan, kita juga yang disogok dengan perkataan 'YAKIN'. yakin boleh buat, yakin berjaya, yakin jadi, kena ada keyakinan baru berjaya, kena yakin dengan diri sendiri, yakin dengan jalan yang dipilih, yakin dengan pilihan hati, confident.. keyakinan.. aku pun dah tanam sifat tu ape? aku yakin kami akan bersama, yakin kami akan bahagia, yakin dia mesti jadi aku punya, yakin.. yakin...

sebab tu aku singkirkan semua, aku buat tak paham, aku buat tak reti, aku buat-buat tak nampak, tak perasan. sebab aku YAKIN. tapi keadaan sekarang telah melunturkan keyakinan aku. belum hilang sepenuhnya tapi makin lama makin hampir hilang. sikit.. sikit..

aku cuba pertahan kan keyakinan. cuba. mesti. tahan dulu. kekang. sebab aku betul-betul takut. aku takut aku jadi tak siuman. senget. sebab aku tak boleh kehilangan lagi. tak boleh. aku yakin. degil kan?

aku nak bahagia. aku nak kebahagiaan. aku minta satu saja. bahagia.

where are you?

4 Ogos

today is the 4th august.

actually i was reminded by my beloved handset that today is the 4th of august. at 1300 hours i saw it blinked. suddenly, i stopped doing whatever i did and i froze.

it was supposed to be the 8th year. but it was not meant to be. a few month short. im not dwelling on the past. but this particular date remind me so much of the past. it just happened. so maybe next year i'll forget about it. just maybe. but for this year, not yet. im so sorry. i just cant help it. im such a loser. ive said it so many times. i know. maybe everybody is sick of it.

so much love, so much anger, so much tears. with whom i can share it? no one. i dont know what to say. i dont know what to write. my brain is numb. so many things going pass through my head right know. good things. great things. happy things. the things that i want to remember.

she seemed content to open a new chapter in her book, a new beginning, a new episode, a new life. i always pray for the best for her. nothing less.

im so sorry dear. for all the things i'd done. i regret for all the pain, tears and scars that i did. right now nothing else matters more to me than to seek your forgiveness. the pain in me will remain for as long as i live. that i assured you. mungkin ini jalan takdirku.

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
Tiada lagi bersama

Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku

PC Fair

i went to PC fair last saturday at kl convention center last saturday with one of my colleagues (abg fizul) and the other one was my colleague's husband (abg iqram). so the three of us went to klcc (the shopping mall) to park our bikes there then we walked to the klcc (the fair). shit. both have the same acronyms. its damn confusing man.

neways, actually we went there to accompany abg fizul because he wanted to buy a laptop. so me and abg iqram was sort of his guide and consultant la. consultant tuh... hehehe.. konon la kan. abg iqram was the pro here because he's working as an IT person. so im the bullshit one la. i know to little. even to myself.

its somewhere before noon we already arrived there but the crowd was like all over the place like ants! the place was jammed packed with consumers buying all sorts of everything that had to do with computers. you name it, they got it. after a few hours of mingling through the crowd, booth and, of course, promoters (damn sexy girls!), we (me and abg iqram) decided that, given the budget, we opt to buy this 1 particular laptop. abg fizul even manage to subscribe a broadband service. i manage to grab a few things myself. cheap thngs arond $20 only. i had to tahan nafsu. if not, makan daun cecah pasir la aku.

Ants walking around to and from PC Fair.

we were tired as hell that day. fuh.. and hungry. then we went back to our branch. test the laptop and broadband there. abg hafizul treat us lunch (at 4pm). then back home.

gosh... what a day..

Chelsea FC vs Malaysia XI.. Bahagian 2.

CHELSEA FC VS MALAYSIA XI
SHAH ALAM STADIUM
28 JULY 2008
8:45 PM

How to describe it...

once in a lifetime opportunity, dreams, wish, u name it its all there. finally... Finally! i WATCHED Chelsea played in front of my very own fucking eyes!!.. my two fucking eyes! (albeit about roughly 200m from the stand but who cares. this is Chelsea FC im talking about) not some mppj fc or johor fc or kelab bolasepak kg ulu tembeling or whatever.. this is THE football club. the best football club in the world.. (so to other club supporters that doesnt agree with me.. well then, fuck off. this is my blog. make your own blog. no offense,k..)

aaaaaaaaarrrggghhhhh!!!!!!!! im in a state of hysteria. lebih kurang la..

so what or how do i feel? im lost for words la actually. to sum it all, im so very fully undoubtedly yours truly sincerely unmistakably confirmly (is there such word?) very very very very very very happy. yey!..

i really still just cant believe it. i was so excited that day. wearing my Chelsea FC t-shirt. went to the shah alam stadium with my "other football club supporters' friends. pak rem (chelsea), imran (liverpool) and ijad (man utd). the four of us were really having a hell of fun that night. shouting and stuff. mostly kutuking malaysian players la. (sorry guys..).

truthful saying, i think most of the Malaysian player were not playing with their country at heart but actually its for the Chelsea's jersey at heart. common just admit it man. as soon as the final whistle blow some of you took off your jersey and quickly asked for an exchange of their jersey before your mates cuts you off. hell, maybe you can take back your own jersey that you gave them in their dressing room's trash bin after they left.. hahahaha... no offense.. again.. im such a foul mouth person.. ;-)

actually we were late that night mostly because of the horrible traffic. when we finally arrived inside the stadium it was around 60% full capacity and by half hour through the game it was around 70% full. i think. but it was a lot of Chelsea fans out there (and some of other clubs' fans). some even wears their club's jersey to watch Chelsea's game. what the fuck?..

i cant wait for the start of english premier league this coming season. Chelsea certainly have the fire power to cruise to the top of the league and along the way bagging europe's top prize, plus some other trophies available. but for me the league and the champions league trophy are the utmost important silverware that i want to see in the Chelsea's grasp this season. God's will.

so for Chelsea FC, from deep down of my heart, thank you for making my dream come true. i'll never forget this special day for the rest of my life. may this season be the best season in your club's history. so, luis felipe scolari, unleash your magic! and to all the players, no more no. 2 ok. enough is enough. its time for you to kick everybody else's ass!!

see you at the top bro. :-)