today is the last day of the holly month of ramadhan. muslims around the world will fast and did the terawih prayer for the last time this year. time fly us by without us realised it. by tomorow a celebration will begin.
i will begin my journey back to my home town. oh how i miss it so much. i need this break. i need something to ease my mind. something that could rejuvinate me. something where i could just relax and be myself.
when the going gets taugh, sometimes we need a place to cool down. and no other place is better then a place we call home. no clients, no customers, no work, no deadline, no targets, no budgets, no tension, no frustration, no tiredness, or everything that we can relate to work. just the sofa, the food, the laptop and the astro. and the live football.
honestly saying i think this ramadhan is the best yet for me since i arrived here. not in terms of my life or the fasting itself but in things like prayers. the 5-times-a-day prayer or terawih prayer or the doa i had been asking from God. i didn't say that i did every prayer everyday. well, there were still some 'holes' here and there. but at least i did better than last year. especially in the terawih section. maybe to some people i'm just a lousy muslim. but i'm proud of myself. maybe it is just a very small step. but a very meaningful one. this time around, i also berdoa a lot to God. i'm the one that people call 'sudah terhantuk'. the wound is big and it was bleeding profusely. hopefully it was for the better.
but make no mistake. this ramadhan is definitely the toughest one to date in terms of my personal life. only God and a few person knows what i'm talking about.
today around noon, i will start my journey back home. hopefully i will arrive early at the airport because today is the last day of ramadhan and the balik kampung exodus are definitely not over yet. it's far from over. and hopefully (again) my trip would not be hit with any serious snag along the way.
i do really mention a lot, words like hope and journey didn't i? well, that is what i need and my life right now. a journey full of hopes. that is the only few things i have left now.
i'll be coming home soon. goodbye ramadhan. i'll sure miss you so much.
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