So Fake!
6 years ago
Bermimpi Di Siang Hari
this few days i actually remember my dreams. usually i didnt remember it but these few days i actually did. for me its rare la. dreams about someone. and when i woke up i feel sad. i hate these kind of dreams. i think everyone also hate it. its was so much better if i hadnt remember anything at all. coz it makes my day sucks.
i have a new addition to my 'family'. even if she's not the same but i'll love her as much as i loved everything else that is dear to me. this time i'll do my best to take good care of her. very good care. i'll try to not make the same mistake again. no more taking for granted. no more carelessness.
Hellboy II: The Golden Army
i watched Hellboy II: The Golden Army yesterday. well, its ok la. nothing much to say actually. the graphic was ok. but maybe the storyline was a bit boring. but then its not that bad.
i just LOVE this guy, RED. he's like a tough guy but he's also a soft devil. he love cats and he really2 love his girlfriend so much. so i think he's sort of a role model la. so, if you have nothing to do then go and watch this movie.
Komplen je
on wednesday, 9 July 2008, sambalkicap wrote:
today i had a meeting with ass. area manager of area 5. well, yet again, makan hati berulam jantung. i tried not to talk too much because its like you are wasting your spit.
and yet again i complained about the 'beating' i had today. i complain too much arent i? well, im so sorry. i need to take it out from my system.
and once again my bad days continued. i think 'having a bad day' is not a really suitable word anymore. because that day came so often that its not that particular anymore or as seldom as it should be. so i think this 'bad day' shouldnt be highlited or mentioned because it has already become a routine thingy.
there seems to be something 'bad' or 'not so good'or 'unlucky' or what ever you may called it, would happened to me every so often. i cant even manage to catch my breath.
so what should i do?
well, my friends, i'll just have to ride the wave babe. a loser's statement right? well, who give a damn anyway. i might get used to it. i might not. so, we'll see how it goes then.
will it ever end?
are you kidding me.. common bro. this is just the beginning. there are lots and lots more to come. so watch your back. expect the unexpected...
Bas Penuh
Tuesday, 8 July 2008. sambalkicap wrote:
today was one of those day where luck was not on my side.
on the way back to my office from meeting a customer at wangsa maju, i had to walk all the way from central market to a bus stop near bangunan mara. why? because i didnt know where i should take the bus ride to my office. i know which bus but i just didnt know where to wait for it in kl. damn far!
then later after work while i was waiting to catch the bus home, 2 different busses that were going to my place came at the same time. how lucky i am... NOT.. why? because BOTH busses were packed with passangers like a tin sardin. i mean, there were even some passangers standing at the door steps thus the door cant even be closed. it was that full! so, i just watched helplessly both busses past me by.
im so tired. im so frustrated. im so unlucky.
Identiti Terbongkar
IDENTITI PEMILIK SEBENAR CHELSEA
TERBONGKAR
KUALA LUMPUR: Identiti sebenar pemilik kelab bolasepak terkenal dan terhebat di eropah, Chelsea FC, akhirnya terbongkar apabila seorang peminat setia kelab itu secara tidak sengaja terserempak dengan individu terbabit ketika balik bercuti ke kampung halaman. Ketika ditanya, Harismovich, atau nama sebenarnya Mohd Adam Haris, yang berusia hampir 2 tahun, menafikan sekeras-kerasnya dakwaan itu.
Segala-galanya berubah apabila pada suatu ketika, beliau menerima satu panggilan telefon dari seorang individu yang tidak dikenali dan peminat setia tadi terdengar nama pengurus pasukan Chelsea FC yang baru iaitu Lius Felipe Scolari atai "Big Phil", seperti yang dikenali di media massa, dalam perbualan mereka. Peminat setia tersebut sempat merakamkan beberapa keping gambar dengan menggunakan kamera telefon bimbitnya sebelum diusir pengawal peribadi Harismovich. Berikut adalah perbualan yang sempat di dengar oleh peminat setia tadi.
Harismovich: wei!!.. aku dah kate ko jangan kecoh-kecoh! sekarang semer orang dah tau. kantoi tol la ko ni.. sape nak explain ni. jawab! jawab!..
Harismovich: oh ye ke?.. bukan ko ke yang kecoh?.. laa, ye ke.. sorry la bro.. ntah la.. weh, mamypoko tu uncle aku beli kat kl. ok la. selesa la jugak..
Harisnovich: hmm.. aku tak sure la. tapi aku rasa harga dia dalam $40 mil la.. tu la pasal.. tapi nak wat macam mane. aku nak player macam dia... melawan plak.. aku tak bayar gaji ko kang..
Harisnovich: Hish!.. sengal tol. dah la tak ngaku.. season depan kalau tak perform mampos ko. aku sumbat henpon ni dalam b****t ko..
Khidmat Nasihat
i really miss the world wide web.
im really looking forward every week(ends) to have a time like this. this is my world. this is what i enjoy most. i once looking forward to my permanent rest day so that i can enjoy that day with someone. but time pass by. so this is my life now.
i had a very good advice today. a very good one infact from my colleague. he was like a big brother to me. about work, about people, about marriage. mostly from his experience as an employee since he was 18 years old and a married guy since 21 years old!
yup.. you heard me right. we called it the magic number. 21. why? coz at that age we are not a juvinile anymore and we can make our own decision (as far as the court is concern) and we can go straight to jail with 20 stroke of rottan or the death setence even (where applicable) if convicted with any felony. hehehe... so no rumah tunas bakti or henry gurney or what ever for you my friend. :-)
i learned a lot from him. especially about (current) work and marriage. thanx bro. just imagine his eldest children is 10 years old and he is only 32! so you can imagine the degree of sacrifices that he had done. things that people like us wont even dare think, let alone commit. i have totally huge respect for this guy.
actually i had wrote something in my notepad while i was a public transport person. but i keep forgeting it. well, maybe next time.
Lokasi.. Lokasi.. Lokasi
i thought i heard it so many times. location is one of the main factors on the road to success. but yesterday was a different story.
it was my first roadshow. dengan bestnye they gave us a target of 20 application for each product we sell. and guest how many customers we get?
zero.. none.. kosong.. takde sekor pun.. nothing.. hampeh!
why?
because all the supposedly experience, clever, 'ottai', very good central processing unit, somewhere in the upper ancheleon of area 5 suggested that we do a roadshow at a place to received and send parcel on weekends instead of weekdays where the customers were almost non-existant and the staff were barely awake or dying of boredness.
there was even a statement saying that it will be busy around noon when the fact that one employee said that it would be the case ONLY if it's on weekdays. how wonderful is that! all said and done. i think these people ought to learn more about marketing. not that i'm saying that i'm cleverer than they are but i think my common sense is much better. i mean just use your logic bro. Logic..
Gosh! egos are everywhere..
Kembara Jalanan.. Yang Penat ;-)
its been a week since i used public transportation. its different, its tiring but honestly, im kind of enjoying myself. strange but its true!.. :-) not that i like it but somewhere in between, its been like a somewhat a revelation. a lesson if i may call it.
its been like, oh, maybe between 4 to 8 years ago since i used the public transportations. yes its that long-loooong time ago. before i bought my scooter that is. well, i did used it occasionally but not as entirely dependent on it as these past week. i used it all-well almost; bus (selangor bus,rapid,metro,sj bus), taxi, commuter, star and putra lrt (now both known as rapid kl i think).
that is why its been like 2 weeks i didnt wrote anything because it's really difficult to go anywhere without any transport. usually i went here at night-coz its cooler and convenient. but today i went here in the afternoon. catching the selangor bus. waiting for it is one thing, not paying for it is another.. hehe.. hey.. i didnt purposely not paying for the fares but its just one stop away and the bus conductor still at the middle of the bus collecting fares from other passengers when i arrived at my stop. so i just alighted from the bus and went on. sorry conductor. i'll pay you next time..
one funny thing happened to me this week was, on the way back from work, im sooooo tired and tertido while inside the bus on my journey back to my house. all of the sudden i woke up and realise that i overslept and the bus had already arrived at its final stop and there was no more passanger around! there i was dumbfounded and confuse and high.. the driver was already standing outside the bus doing nothing. i sat for awhile. regain my consciousness and decided to walk back home. its not too far but its already 9pm and im tired and disillusion and i pissed of with the bus driver or the passenger besides me for not waking me up. but actually its me, myself and i whom were at fault and nobody else. when i think back it makes me, and my mom, laugh! yes i told her about the 'incident'. she even sarcastically sms me the next day weather i overslept again.. grrr!!!
as a normal citizen using the public transport, it really got me thinking. i watched all walks of life going about their own business. there are more to life that we never see. there are so much going on. i watched the young and the old, the poor and the rich, the not so poor nor rich. the beauty and the beast. the basikal apek and the aprilla's or ducati's. the viva's and the mercedes brabus. different races, nationality, age, all have their own stories to tell. all have something going on somewhere. by using public transportation you'll get to watch how life really goes on around you. believe me you'll only get to watched this side of life by foot. its most of us nowadays are not willing to do even myself. if not by chance i lost my scooter then maybe i wouldnt even notice there's more going on in life other than the oil price hike and political tsunami that rage our society currently that overshadows our sight to the more important and urgent manner to be resolve such as livelihood of the poor or the safety or our fellow commuters or even the fate of stray cats and dogs all over the city.
yes even animals have their right to live alongside us in this world. we share this world, remember?..
kembara aku pergi balik kerja menyedarkan aku terlalu banyak aku perlu pelajari dari kehidupan. terlalu banyak aku tertinggal dalam belajar erti hidup yang sebenar. setiap rupa, setiap kudrat, setiap gaya, menyimpan seribu satu cerita. manakala perjalanan hidup aku sendiri sebenarnya banyak mengajar aku betapa kerdilnya aku sebagai manusia. betapa biasanya aku. aku umpama jatuh ke bumi semula. aku ni sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga. sudah la ditimpa tangga, kaki aku pula tersepit dan cedera parah.
actually its like a down memory lane thing for me. when i used to depend on the buses or taxis to get me anywhere. its a de javu sort of thing. one particular memory was when i used to catch the hideously, crap, junk, worthy of metal scrap, smelly feet conductor, crazy driver that either he thinks he's a formula one driver or very slow driver that a 45 minute journey took more than 1 and a half hour to arrives of selangor omni bus co. ltd.
we will see how its gonna be next week. hopefully im fully awake until the last stop. :-)
Dimanakah noktah?
Sunday. June 29, 2008
i dont know where to start.
last friday. on june 27, 2008. i received another big, no, its a huge blow to my already crumbling life. some fucking pig had stolen my scooter.
yes. my beloved scooter. the scooter that i love so much. the scooter that my parent gave me. the scooter that was always there for me. through my ups and down. through happiness and laughter. through hardship and pain. through sadness and sorrow.
i dont have much of an anything in my life. but just in less than 5 month i lost these few things that i hold dear. the only things i had left. infact in dont have anything more to hold on to except for one. my inspiron? oh God please dont.
my love life, my adidas sweater, my friends and now my scooter.
2008 is the year that i would really want to forget. but ironnically, its the year it will also be remembered for the rest of my life.
is there an end to my misfortune? is there actually an end to all of this?
adakah ini yang dimaksudkan sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga?
tapi apakan daya. aku hanya mampu meratapi kehilangan. yang masih belum menunjukkan tanda2 ia kan berakhir. sampai bilakah aku akan terus merasa kehilangan? berat. terlalu berat. sangat2 berat..
ya Allah.. sangat-sangat berat.. :'(
mata aku merah lagi. air mata aku mengalir lagi. hidung aku tersumbat lagi. macam dah routine. macam dah jadi satu kemestian sekarang. tak sudah2. aku dah bosan, muak, tak larat.
bahu aku sudah tak terdaya nak memikul dugaan yang begitu berat. dah retak pun. retak menunggu belah. dah nak tertanggal dah.
tabah. cekal. sabar. kuat..
atau
gila. putus asa. putus harap. mengaku kalah.
which one do i choose?
it seems that it keeps coming. taking me by surprise. its like an ambush. it hits you where you least expected it.
now i know why people become crazy. why people commit suicide. why people do things that we deem stupid and unthinkable to human consciousness.
because i feel it too. its unbearable. it weakens your entire body. it blocks your sense of logic, stab you right in your heart and soul, close your will to live, it deprive you of hope. all the hope that you had left.
the hurricane may have past. but the dark cloud hovering above me doesnt seem to go away anytime sooner. a new storm may come again. i just dont know when. i just dont know what. could i be ready for it when it strike again? well, the answer is.. no.
is there a silver lining from all of this?
is there any light left for me at the end or the tunnel?
is there anything else left?
anything..
