Ramadhan Al Mubarak 1429 Hijrah

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hari ini 1 Ramadhan 1429.

bulan Ramadhan kembali semula menjengah kita. sekejap saja masa berlalu. tapi kali ini suasananya amat berbeza untuk aku. banyak yang aku terkenangkan ketika ramadhan. yang paling aku tak boleh nak lupa, aku eksiden masa balik dari berbuka puasa. langgar anjing pulak tuh! sakitnya tuhan je yang tau. ngeri beb.. terpelanting macam superman. jatuh atas jalan dan terseret kejap. ouch!..

ada lagi bekas luka kat pinggang aku ni. besar gak la. hampir jahanam skutut aku. bekal yang aku dapat untuk bersahur entah ke mana. mud guard depan dah tertanggal. handle bengkok. cover depan motor pecah sebelah tepi kiri. tangan kiri aku tak dapat nak berfungsi dengan elok sebab aku landing sebelah kiri badan. aku guna tangan aku untuk perlahankan impact masa jatuh. tapi lepas tu nak genggam pun sakit. susah nak buat kerja. itu la pengalaman eksiden yang agak ngeri la sepanjang hidup aku setakat nie.

apa cerita anjing tu?.. entah lah. mampos kot. aku pun tak tau. sebab aku tengah shock dan kesakitan. tak ada masa nak fikir pasal menatang tu. kesian gak la kan. ni la akibat nya bergurau tak kena tempat. pastu lintas jalan tak tengok kiri kanan. malang tak berbau. aku plak yang jadi mangsa.

ramadhan ni boleh dikatakan i'm on my own. aku tak biasa tapi aku tak ada pilihan. sedih. tapi nak buat macam mana. bak kata forest gump, "life is like a box of choclate. you never know what you're gonna get". well, it's true.

kuih muih: staf kat ofis aku rajin buat makan petang sebelum balik kerja. salah 1 juadah di suatu petang.

menjelang ramadhan biasanya banyak dugaan yang akan kita lalui. salah satunya tengok orang bukan Islam makan di siang hari + iklan makan yang bersepah kat tv dan newspaper. or kena tahan mata dari tengok yang seksi-seksi. or tak boleh mencarut kang pahala kena potong.. :-) dan untuk aku pula, dugaannya akan jadi lebih sikit. aku kena harunginya dengan hati yang ditelah ditebat tebal dengan apa saja yang aku ada supaya emosi susah nak masuk. sebab terlalu banyak kenangan aku di bulan ramadhan tahun-tahun yang sudah.

aku tak sanggup nak imagine apa yang bakal aku lalui tapi aku sebenarnya selalu berdoa dan berharap semuanya akan cepat berlalu. bukan aku tak suka bulan yang mulia ni tapi takut jadi perit sangat. so dugaan tahun ni sangat berat. mungkin Tuhan nak ajar aku atas kesalahan aku yang tinggi menggunung waktu dahulu. pasrah je la yang aku mampu.

aku ada tekad aku sendiri tahun ni. aku nak jadikan ramadhan tahun ni lebih baik dari ramadhan aku tahun lepas. kalau tak banyak, sikit pun jadilah. tak banyak pahala, sikit pun boleh la kan. daripada kosong. ready or not here it comes. aku kena banyak bersabar. banyak-banyak bersabar.

last but not least, aku ingin mengucapkan Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan 1429 Hijrah kepada semua umat Islam terutamanya di malaysia. mudah-mudahan ibadat anda semua diberkati dan dirahmati Allah SWT. Amin.

Selamat Hari Merdeka

today is 31 august 2008.

i would like to all Malaysian a happy independence day today. lets us pray for the harmony, peace and stability will last forever. Amin.

i just stayed home at the stroke of midnight with my friend. watching a dvd movie. not to say that we were unpatriotic. but we're just 2 lazy bum that just couldn't imagine ourselves going through the hassle of kl's traffic congestion. and also the possibility of raining tonight (guess i'm wrong because now its already 2am and its not raining outside). but we did went out just now for a while. to have our dinner and bought a couple of dvds at my usual shop. then back home. and that's it.

well, happy merdeka day again. and today is the last day before fasting month begin. yup.. its the time of the year again. the holy month will start tomorrow. wether we're prepared or not its coming to us. ;-)

Wigan 0 - 1 Chelsea, Sayonara Beijing

yup.. they did it again. Chelsea maintain their good start of the season by beating wigan with a single goal. courtesy from a superb free kick by deco. he's on fire bebeh!.. i just managed to watched the 2nd half of the match. this 1 uncle want tot watch the closing ceremony of beijing olympic. Chelsea is THE Best!.. muahahahahahahahahahahahaha...

well, today is the last day for beijing olympic. china is on top of the medal ranking. thus the overall champs for this edition. congrats to them. sooo.. when will be malaysia's turn to organise the biggest sports even on the planet? hmm.. wishfull thinking. not imposible. but for the time being, considering our country's sports achievement, hmm.. nevermind..

Hujan Yang Turun

rain. most of the time, its a blessing. sometimes its a wrath from The One. it brings relief or joy to some people but it also can bring tears or sorrow to others. either way, dont complained. just hope for the best. not for the worst.

suddenly it reminds me of a song by sudirman entitled hujan.

Hujan yang turun bagaikan mutiara
Berkilau bersinar berkerdipan
Subur menghijau bumi terbentang
Dan bayu berpuput lembut

Cinta yang bersemi
Diwaktu hujan turun
Menyirami ketandusan hati
Dan hujan turut mengiringi
Engkau pergi...

Selembut hujan bercurahan
Begitulah cinta ini
Semesra bumi yang disirami
Begitulah hati ini

Hujan yang turun bersama air mata
Bersama pedih, bersama rindu
Kau datang dan kau pergi jua
Rindu lagi...

it rains almost everyday this week. including today. i was planning to go jalan-jalan but boy was i frustrated. so reluctantly i stayed home the whole day. doing nothing. well maybe did some washing, playing pc games, moving around the house, turn on the tv but didnt watch at all. the usual stuff. so i've wasted this day doing nothing (by my standard).

tomorrow is working day. again. how time past us by so quickly. cant wait for the next weekends. (already? ;-) i bought 4 dvd but i havent watch all of it. well, i watched 2 but only for like not more than 30 minutes each for the last 2 nights. sadly my eyes let me down. grrr...

oh well, maybe tonight i'll watch 1 until it finishes. hopefully.

Raja Pecut Dunia

this guy is fast. no. let me rephrase. this guy is fucking fast! he's a speed demon! usain bolt. a name that i never have heard of before until he broke asafa powell 's 100m world record. and suddenly he was the king of sprint.

i am the king!: bolt posed besides his new world record time for 100m print event.

see ya sucker!: he was way infront of everyone as he crosses the finishing line.

firstly, he broke his own world 100m record. he even managed to slow down and thumped his chest in enroute to the finish line and STILL broke the world record. damn this guy was fast!
secondly, he won the 200m race and at the same time, broke micheal johson's previous world record by 0.02s faster. insane! this is madness..

this dude is unbelievable.

i am the king!.. again!: bolt beside his world record time in 200m event final.

huf.. huf..: other runners could only smell his fart. no challenge at all. kacang la beb..

Binatang

These few days i stumble upon a few lovely animal and i took the opportunity to take some pictures of them in action. just want to share it with err.. whom ever it may concern.

afternoon nap: i stumble upon this mother and kitten cat having a nap while i was choosing my lauk for lunch at kg baru.

posing baik: this canary was on show at one utama.

yum! yum!: maybe he's hungry.. really hungry..

Jangan Ada Ruang Untuk Penyesalan

as i was reading my sunday newspaper i came across a q&a in starmag under the heart & soul section, page 24. nevermind the question. the answer was what matter most. thelma wrote:

"whose face do you see when you think about the future? do you want to feel safe, familiar and acceptable? or do your prefer a relationship with someone who could make you feel loved, warmed and tender?

some women prefer practical predictability to wild heartbeat and passion. its a choice each individual has to make. and neither is right nor wrong. many of us walk through life passively and safely. some of us prefer adventures, risk and excitement. ultimately, its what we are that makes the difference.

some say love, passion and romance will fizzle out after marriage. some swear to great love and joy for a lifetime. most of us pretend that all is well. when pushed into a corner, we blame, cry and walk away yelling "foul"...

...be honest, sincere and rational if you can. it's never easy making choice when your heart is being pulled from different directions and your mind confuse.

...in time, you will have to make a choice. just do not leave room for regret"

just do not leave room for regret.

Selamat Pengantin Baru

i want to wish Selamat Pengantin Baru to my friend Norhaslinda Ismail and her hubby Abdullah Ab. Shukor on their wedding day last saturday, august 16, 2008 . sorry i couldnt stay longer because i had to send my friend back home. i couldnt be happier for you on your special day. i wish both of you the best in everything. may both of you live happily ever after.

all set: the ceremony was about to start.

walking down the isle: the bride and groom were paraded to the pelamin.

destiny: on the stage waiting for the tepung tawar ceremony.

Amin.

Chelsea 4 - 0 Portsmouth

english premier league officially start yesterday. and today is Chelsea's first game under the new coach luis felipe scolari or better known as big phil. what a great start to the season as Chelsea trash portsmouth 4-0 at stamford bridge. a goal each from joe cole, anelka, lampard and deco.

poor portsmouth. just last week they lost to man utd in carling cup final from panalties after extra time. well, what to do. life sucks.. hehehe..

i just watched the game and chelsea was awesome! they dominated the game. occasionally portsmouth did threatened once in a while but chelsea's solid defence stood firm untill the end of the match. i went down late to the mamak downstairs. just as i arrived there, anelka headed in the 2nd goal. magnificiento! the rest is history.

waarggh!: joe cole's reaction after scoring his and chelsea's first goal of the 2008/2009 season.

2nd goal: lampard scored from the penalty spot.

originally i thought i'd stay home and watched olympic badminton final between lee chong wei and lin dan. because i thought no mamak would screen a football match because the hot topic everyone talked about today was the badminton final and because i thought every mamak would only screen the badminton match. but i just tried my luck. and wallah! there was a mamak screening chelsea vs portsmouth game. so i just sit there. ordered a teh o limau panas and sit there untill the match ended.

not that i'm not patriotic. but i guess i just love to watch a football game. no offence to all malaysian. i wish lee chong wei all the best. malaysia boleh! (ermm.. btw, he lost the final. i just herd the news.)

well, i hope this is the beginning of a wonderful and prosper year for chelsea. and i wish chelsea will win the epl crown and ofcourse the elusive champions league trophy.

CHELSEA! CHELSEA! Chelsea Boleh!

yeeeeeeaaaaahhhhhh!!

Selamat Hari Jadi Namleys

HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY !

today, 11 august 2008, is the day you are getting 1 year older. happy 27th years oooooooold..

happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you.

saya doakan panjang umur dah murah rezeki.. semoga kebahagian kekal hingga ke akhir hayat...

Amin.

this song is for you.

08.08.08

today is 8th of august 2008, or

08.08.08

this is a special number for the chinese community because they believe the number 8 brings good luck (i think). for other people its the uniqueness of the date itself that makes it stand out. like 07.07.07 (last year) or 09.09.09 (next year).

so, its not unusual that a lot of special event took place today. im not particularly sure but i think the busiest person today is tok kadi's, father's, sami's or what ever they call them. yup, a lot of couples are getting married today (or already married by now). just this afternoon, soon after i finished my friday prayer, a group of people including the bride & the bridegroom to-be was seen entering a small hall at the mosque for akad nikah. so the tok imam(s) would probably be the busiest man today. i think our prime minister was way behind in terms of busy-ness. :-)

also today is the opening of the olympic games in beijing. the president of IOC is making a speech right now as i type this blog to officiate the opening of the olympic games. and not surprisingly they choose today as the special day. they really have this cool-ass stadium that they call bird's nest and this cool-ass aquatic stadium for the swimming events.

Beijing Olympic 2008: this is this year's olympic logo.

"The beautiful architectural monstrosity is a testimony to China’s love for “biomimicry”; a pseudo term that references large massive buildings modeled after nature. The Olympic stadium is shaped like a bird’s nest with intertwining metal girders that resemble gentle chopsticks—and is symbolic of China’s political volatility and complex nature. In just a couple of months, China will attempt to unravel the bird’s nest of political and environmental problems to show to the world that buried deep within the nest, are the golden eggs of this country’s true beauty." - offthechang.wordpress.com/

Aquatic Stadium? : architectural genius. or simply, a kick-ass stadium!

Olympic Medals: cool!

Olympic Torch: super cool!

i also dont want to be left out in making something for this date. actually i dont know what to do nor do i have anything specific in mind. so i thought i'd write a blog on this date. jadilah kan. hehe..

What is Happiness, Happy?

bahagia. kebahagiaan.

apakah yang sebenarnya yang dimaksudkan dengan kebahagiaan? apakah definisi bahagia? dimanakah kita boleh mencari bahagia? sesetengah manusia tidak ada masalah dengan kebahagiaan. tapi ada sebahagian pula tidak bernasib baik dengan kebahagian.

aku ingin sangat tahu apakah sebenarnya definisi bahagia? kebahagiaan? kebahagiaan yang hakiki adalah cinta kepada Allah SWT. itu aku tahu. maksud aku cinta, sayang terhadap sesuatu perkara, barang, benda, manusia, haiwan, apa saja. boleh kah kita bahagia kerana cinta, sayang? atau, walaupun kedua-duanya ada tidak semestinya kita akan mengecap kebahagiaan.

kenapa?

cinta? ada.. sayang? ada.. bahagia?.. tak.. aik, macam mana tu?.. mana mungkin boleh tak bahagia.

aku tak faham.. tak faham... betul-betul tak faham. kadang-kadang cinta, sayang ada tapi yang datang merana, sengsara. mana perginya bahagia? kenapa tak bahagia walupun dah sayang sepenuh hati, dah cinta sehingga ke mati, lautan api sanggup ku renangi?

why?

adakah ini yang kita panggil kehidupan? atau dengan lebih tepat lagi, dugaan?.. adussss.. pening.. pening!!! aku tak boleh tersalah cakap. aku tak boleh tersalah kata. binasa. kang tak pasal-pasal aku kena panah petir. sebab bila kita frust, tertekan, tension, sengsara, kita persoalkan "kenapa?".. lepas tu kita marah dengan yang Maha Esa sebab kenapa kita? kenapa terlalu hebat? sampai tak tertanggung bahu, kepala.. tak termampu nak berdiri. kaki lemah. kepala melilau. badan tak bermaya. putus asa.

kenapa aku tak boleh bersama orang yang aku sayang? baru aku tahu erti sebenar sengsara. selama ini aku hanya sebut-sebut, baca, dengar. tapi rupanya... dasyat! jangan sebut kalau tak pernah rasa. setakat sengsara menahan nafsu nak makan kfc, aku terajang kang.

aku sedih. :'-(

jantung ni bagaikan nak berhenti berdegup. selama ini aku mengharap. walau banyak sudah petanda aku dapat. tapi aku degil. aku melawan. aku buat tak tau. aku buat tak paham. aku tak peduli. mungkin sebab aku menaruh harap. aku berharap. maybe, just maybe there is some kind of hope? even a little? tiny teenie weenie? seciput ke? sebesar zarah ke?

tapi kan, kita juga yang disogok dengan perkataan 'YAKIN'. yakin boleh buat, yakin berjaya, yakin jadi, kena ada keyakinan baru berjaya, kena yakin dengan diri sendiri, yakin dengan jalan yang dipilih, yakin dengan pilihan hati, confident.. keyakinan.. aku pun dah tanam sifat tu ape? aku yakin kami akan bersama, yakin kami akan bahagia, yakin dia mesti jadi aku punya, yakin.. yakin...

sebab tu aku singkirkan semua, aku buat tak paham, aku buat tak reti, aku buat-buat tak nampak, tak perasan. sebab aku YAKIN. tapi keadaan sekarang telah melunturkan keyakinan aku. belum hilang sepenuhnya tapi makin lama makin hampir hilang. sikit.. sikit..

aku cuba pertahan kan keyakinan. cuba. mesti. tahan dulu. kekang. sebab aku betul-betul takut. aku takut aku jadi tak siuman. senget. sebab aku tak boleh kehilangan lagi. tak boleh. aku yakin. degil kan?

aku nak bahagia. aku nak kebahagiaan. aku minta satu saja. bahagia.

where are you?

4 Ogos

today is the 4th august.

actually i was reminded by my beloved handset that today is the 4th of august. at 1300 hours i saw it blinked. suddenly, i stopped doing whatever i did and i froze.

it was supposed to be the 8th year. but it was not meant to be. a few month short. im not dwelling on the past. but this particular date remind me so much of the past. it just happened. so maybe next year i'll forget about it. just maybe. but for this year, not yet. im so sorry. i just cant help it. im such a loser. ive said it so many times. i know. maybe everybody is sick of it.

so much love, so much anger, so much tears. with whom i can share it? no one. i dont know what to say. i dont know what to write. my brain is numb. so many things going pass through my head right know. good things. great things. happy things. the things that i want to remember.

she seemed content to open a new chapter in her book, a new beginning, a new episode, a new life. i always pray for the best for her. nothing less.

im so sorry dear. for all the things i'd done. i regret for all the pain, tears and scars that i did. right now nothing else matters more to me than to seek your forgiveness. the pain in me will remain for as long as i live. that i assured you. mungkin ini jalan takdirku.

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
Tiada lagi bersama

Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku

PC Fair

i went to PC fair last saturday at kl convention center last saturday with one of my colleagues (abg fizul) and the other one was my colleague's husband (abg iqram). so the three of us went to klcc (the shopping mall) to park our bikes there then we walked to the klcc (the fair). shit. both have the same acronyms. its damn confusing man.

neways, actually we went there to accompany abg fizul because he wanted to buy a laptop. so me and abg iqram was sort of his guide and consultant la. consultant tuh... hehehe.. konon la kan. abg iqram was the pro here because he's working as an IT person. so im the bullshit one la. i know to little. even to myself.

its somewhere before noon we already arrived there but the crowd was like all over the place like ants! the place was jammed packed with consumers buying all sorts of everything that had to do with computers. you name it, they got it. after a few hours of mingling through the crowd, booth and, of course, promoters (damn sexy girls!), we (me and abg iqram) decided that, given the budget, we opt to buy this 1 particular laptop. abg fizul even manage to subscribe a broadband service. i manage to grab a few things myself. cheap thngs arond $20 only. i had to tahan nafsu. if not, makan daun cecah pasir la aku.

Ants walking around to and from PC Fair.

we were tired as hell that day. fuh.. and hungry. then we went back to our branch. test the laptop and broadband there. abg hafizul treat us lunch (at 4pm). then back home.

gosh... what a day..

Chelsea FC vs Malaysia XI.. Bahagian 2.

CHELSEA FC VS MALAYSIA XI
SHAH ALAM STADIUM
28 JULY 2008
8:45 PM

How to describe it...

once in a lifetime opportunity, dreams, wish, u name it its all there. finally... Finally! i WATCHED Chelsea played in front of my very own fucking eyes!!.. my two fucking eyes! (albeit about roughly 200m from the stand but who cares. this is Chelsea FC im talking about) not some mppj fc or johor fc or kelab bolasepak kg ulu tembeling or whatever.. this is THE football club. the best football club in the world.. (so to other club supporters that doesnt agree with me.. well then, fuck off. this is my blog. make your own blog. no offense,k..)

aaaaaaaaarrrggghhhhh!!!!!!!! im in a state of hysteria. lebih kurang la..

so what or how do i feel? im lost for words la actually. to sum it all, im so very fully undoubtedly yours truly sincerely unmistakably confirmly (is there such word?) very very very very very very happy. yey!..

i really still just cant believe it. i was so excited that day. wearing my Chelsea FC t-shirt. went to the shah alam stadium with my "other football club supporters' friends. pak rem (chelsea), imran (liverpool) and ijad (man utd). the four of us were really having a hell of fun that night. shouting and stuff. mostly kutuking malaysian players la. (sorry guys..).

truthful saying, i think most of the Malaysian player were not playing with their country at heart but actually its for the Chelsea's jersey at heart. common just admit it man. as soon as the final whistle blow some of you took off your jersey and quickly asked for an exchange of their jersey before your mates cuts you off. hell, maybe you can take back your own jersey that you gave them in their dressing room's trash bin after they left.. hahahaha... no offense.. again.. im such a foul mouth person.. ;-)

actually we were late that night mostly because of the horrible traffic. when we finally arrived inside the stadium it was around 60% full capacity and by half hour through the game it was around 70% full. i think. but it was a lot of Chelsea fans out there (and some of other clubs' fans). some even wears their club's jersey to watch Chelsea's game. what the fuck?..

i cant wait for the start of english premier league this coming season. Chelsea certainly have the fire power to cruise to the top of the league and along the way bagging europe's top prize, plus some other trophies available. but for me the league and the champions league trophy are the utmost important silverware that i want to see in the Chelsea's grasp this season. God's will.

so for Chelsea FC, from deep down of my heart, thank you for making my dream come true. i'll never forget this special day for the rest of my life. may this season be the best season in your club's history. so, luis felipe scolari, unleash your magic! and to all the players, no more no. 2 ok. enough is enough. its time for you to kick everybody else's ass!!

see you at the top bro. :-)

Chelsea FC vs Malaysia XI.. Bahagian 1.

Bermimpi Di Siang Hari

this few days i actually remember my dreams. usually i didnt remember it but these few days i actually did. for me its rare la. dreams about someone. and when i woke up i feel sad. i hate these kind of dreams. i think everyone also hate it. its was so much better if i hadnt remember anything at all. coz it makes my day sucks.

i have a new addition to my 'family'. even if she's not the same but i'll love her as much as i loved everything else that is dear to me. this time i'll do my best to take good care of her. very good care. i'll try to not make the same mistake again. no more taking for granted. no more carelessness.

Hellboy II: The Golden Army

i watched Hellboy II: The Golden Army yesterday. well, its ok la. nothing much to say actually. the graphic was ok. but maybe the storyline was a bit boring. but then its not that bad.
i just LOVE this guy, RED. he's like a tough guy but he's also a soft devil. he love cats and he really2 love his girlfriend so much. so i think he's sort of a role model la. so, if you have nothing to do then go and watch this movie.

Komplen je

on wednesday, 9 July 2008, sambalkicap wrote:

today i had a meeting with ass. area manager of area 5. well, yet again, makan hati berulam jantung. i tried not to talk too much because its like you are wasting your spit.

and yet again i complained about the 'beating' i had today. i complain too much arent i? well, im so sorry. i need to take it out from my system.

and once again my bad days continued. i think 'having a bad day' is not a really suitable word anymore. because that day came so often that its not that particular anymore or as seldom as it should be. so i think this 'bad day' shouldnt be highlited or mentioned because it has already become a routine thingy.

there seems to be something 'bad' or 'not so good'or 'unlucky' or what ever you may called it, would happened to me every so often. i cant even manage to catch my breath.

so what should i do?

well, my friends, i'll just have to ride the wave babe. a loser's statement right? well, who give a damn anyway. i might get used to it. i might not. so, we'll see how it goes then.

will it ever end?

are you kidding me.. common bro. this is just the beginning. there are lots and lots more to come. so watch your back. expect the unexpected...

Bas Penuh

Tuesday, 8 July 2008. sambalkicap wrote:

today was one of those day where luck was not on my side.

on the way back to my office from meeting a customer at wangsa maju, i had to walk all the way from central market to a bus stop near bangunan mara. why? because i didnt know where i should take the bus ride to my office. i know which bus but i just didnt know where to wait for it in kl. damn far!

then later after work while i was waiting to catch the bus home, 2 different busses that were going to my place came at the same time. how lucky i am... NOT.. why? because BOTH busses were packed with passangers like a tin sardin. i mean, there were even some passangers standing at the door steps thus the door cant even be closed. it was that full! so, i just watched helplessly both busses past me by.

im so tired. im so frustrated. im so unlucky.

Identiti Terbongkar

IDENTITI PEMILIK SEBENAR CHELSEA

TERBONGKAR

KUALA LUMPUR: Identiti sebenar pemilik kelab bolasepak terkenal dan terhebat di eropah, Chelsea FC, akhirnya terbongkar apabila seorang peminat setia kelab itu secara tidak sengaja terserempak dengan individu terbabit ketika balik bercuti ke kampung halaman. Ketika ditanya, Harismovich, atau nama sebenarnya Mohd Adam Haris, yang berusia hampir 2 tahun, menafikan sekeras-kerasnya dakwaan itu.

Segala-galanya berubah apabila pada suatu ketika, beliau menerima satu panggilan telefon dari seorang individu yang tidak dikenali dan peminat setia tadi terdengar nama pengurus pasukan Chelsea FC yang baru iaitu Lius Felipe Scolari atai "Big Phil", seperti yang dikenali di media massa, dalam perbualan mereka. Peminat setia tersebut sempat merakamkan beberapa keping gambar dengan menggunakan kamera telefon bimbitnya sebelum diusir pengawal peribadi Harismovich. Berikut adalah perbualan yang sempat di dengar oleh peminat setia tadi.

Harismovich: wei!!.. aku dah kate ko jangan kecoh-kecoh! sekarang semer orang dah tau. kantoi tol la ko ni.. sape nak explain ni. jawab! jawab!..

Harismovich: oh ye ke?.. bukan ko ke yang kecoh?.. laa, ye ke.. sorry la bro.. ntah la.. weh, mamypoko tu uncle aku beli kat kl. ok la. selesa la jugak..

Harisnovich: hmm.. aku tak sure la. tapi aku rasa harga dia dalam $40 mil la.. tu la pasal.. tapi nak wat macam mane. aku nak player macam dia... melawan plak.. aku tak bayar gaji ko kang..

Harisnovich: Hish!.. sengal tol. dah la tak ngaku.. season depan kalau tak perform mampos ko. aku sumbat henpon ni dalam b****t ko..

Setelah menyedari dia diperhatikan, Harismovich segera meniggalkan kawasan itu bersama pengawal-pengawal peribadinya dengan menaiki sebuah kereta yang kelihatan seperti kancil 850cc yang dimiliki ibunya, dipercayai sebagai kenderaan samaran supaya indentitinya tidak diketahui umum. Sehingga kini pihak Chelsea FC masih gagal dihubungi untuk mendapatkan pengesahan. - REUTER-

Khidmat Nasihat

i really miss the world wide web.

im really looking forward every week(ends) to have a time like this. this is my world. this is what i enjoy most. i once looking forward to my permanent rest day so that i can enjoy that day with someone. but time pass by. so this is my life now.

i had a very good advice today. a very good one infact from my colleague. he was like a big brother to me. about work, about people, about marriage. mostly from his experience as an employee since he was 18 years old and a married guy since 21 years old!

yup.. you heard me right. we called it the magic number. 21. why? coz at that age we are not a juvinile anymore and we can make our own decision (as far as the court is concern) and we can go straight to jail with 20 stroke of rottan or the death setence even (where applicable) if convicted with any felony. hehehe... so no rumah tunas bakti or henry gurney or what ever for you my friend. :-)

i learned a lot from him. especially about (current) work and marriage. thanx bro. just imagine his eldest children is 10 years old and he is only 32! so you can imagine the degree of sacrifices that he had done. things that people like us wont even dare think, let alone commit. i have totally huge respect for this guy.

actually i had wrote something in my notepad while i was a public transport person. but i keep forgeting it. well, maybe next time.

Lokasi.. Lokasi.. Lokasi

i thought i heard it so many times. location is one of the main factors on the road to success. but yesterday was a different story.

it was my first roadshow. dengan bestnye they gave us a target of 20 application for each product we sell. and guest how many customers we get?
zero.. none.. kosong.. takde sekor pun.. nothing.. hampeh!

why?

because all the supposedly experience, clever, 'ottai', very good central processing unit, somewhere in the upper ancheleon of area 5 suggested that we do a roadshow at a place to received and send parcel on weekends instead of weekdays where the customers were almost non-existant and the staff were barely awake or dying of boredness.

there was even a statement saying that it will be busy around noon when the fact that one employee said that it would be the case ONLY if it's on weekdays. how wonderful is that! all said and done. i think these people ought to learn more about marketing. not that i'm saying that i'm cleverer than they are but i think my common sense is much better. i mean just use your logic bro. Logic..

Gosh! egos are everywhere..

Kembara Jalanan.. Yang Penat ;-)

its been a week since i used public transportation. its different, its tiring but honestly, im kind of enjoying myself. strange but its true!.. :-) not that i like it but somewhere in between, its been like a somewhat a revelation. a lesson if i may call it.

its been like, oh, maybe between 4 to 8 years ago since i used the public transportations. yes its that long-loooong time ago. before i bought my scooter that is. well, i did used it occasionally but not as entirely dependent on it as these past week. i used it all-well almost; bus (selangor bus,rapid,metro,sj bus), taxi, commuter, star and putra lrt (now both known as rapid kl i think).

that is why its been like 2 weeks i didnt wrote anything because it's really difficult to go anywhere without any transport. usually i went here at night-coz its cooler and convenient. but today i went here in the afternoon. catching the selangor bus. waiting for it is one thing, not paying for it is another.. hehe.. hey.. i didnt purposely not paying for the fares but its just one stop away and the bus conductor still at the middle of the bus collecting fares from other passengers when i arrived at my stop. so i just alighted from the bus and went on. sorry conductor. i'll pay you next time..

one funny thing happened to me this week was, on the way back from work, im sooooo tired and tertido while inside the bus on my journey back to my house. all of the sudden i woke up and realise that i overslept and the bus had already arrived at its final stop and there was no more passanger around! there i was dumbfounded and confuse and high.. the driver was already standing outside the bus doing nothing. i sat for awhile. regain my consciousness and decided to walk back home. its not too far but its already 9pm and im tired and disillusion and i pissed of with the bus driver or the passenger besides me for not waking me up. but actually its me, myself and i whom were at fault and nobody else. when i think back it makes me, and my mom, laugh! yes i told her about the 'incident'. she even sarcastically sms me the next day weather i overslept again.. grrr!!!

as a normal citizen using the public transport, it really got me thinking. i watched all walks of life going about their own business. there are more to life that we never see. there are so much going on. i watched the young and the old, the poor and the rich, the not so poor nor rich. the beauty and the beast. the basikal apek and the aprilla's or ducati's. the viva's and the mercedes brabus. different races, nationality, age, all have their own stories to tell. all have something going on somewhere. by using public transportation you'll get to watch how life really goes on around you. believe me you'll only get to watched this side of life by foot. its most of us nowadays are not willing to do even myself. if not by chance i lost my scooter then maybe i wouldnt even notice there's more going on in life other than the oil price hike and political tsunami that rage our society currently that overshadows our sight to the more important and urgent manner to be resolve such as livelihood of the poor or the safety or our fellow commuters or even the fate of stray cats and dogs all over the city.

yes even animals have their right to live alongside us in this world. we share this world, remember?..

kembara aku pergi balik kerja menyedarkan aku terlalu banyak aku perlu pelajari dari kehidupan. terlalu banyak aku tertinggal dalam belajar erti hidup yang sebenar. setiap rupa, setiap kudrat, setiap gaya, menyimpan seribu satu cerita. manakala perjalanan hidup aku sendiri sebenarnya banyak mengajar aku betapa kerdilnya aku sebagai manusia. betapa biasanya aku. aku umpama jatuh ke bumi semula. aku ni sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga. sudah la ditimpa tangga, kaki aku pula tersepit dan cedera parah.

actually its like a down memory lane thing for me. when i used to depend on the buses or taxis to get me anywhere. its a de javu sort of thing. one particular memory was when i used to catch the hideously, crap, junk, worthy of metal scrap, smelly feet conductor, crazy driver that either he thinks he's a formula one driver or very slow driver that a 45 minute journey took more than 1 and a half hour to arrives of selangor omni bus co. ltd.

we will see how its gonna be next week. hopefully im fully awake until the last stop. :-)

Dimanakah noktah?

Sunday. June 29, 2008

i dont know where to start.

last friday. on june 27, 2008. i received another big, no, its a huge blow to my already crumbling life. some fucking pig had stolen my scooter.

yes. my beloved scooter. the scooter that i love so much. the scooter that my parent gave me. the scooter that was always there for me. through my ups and down. through happiness and laughter. through hardship and pain. through sadness and sorrow.

i dont have much of an anything in my life. but just in less than 5 month i lost these few things that i hold dear. the only things i had left. infact in dont have anything more to hold on to except for one. my inspiron? oh God please dont.

my love life, my adidas sweater, my friends and now my scooter.

2008 is the year that i would really want to forget. but ironnically, its the year it will also be remembered for the rest of my life.

is there an end to my misfortune? is there actually an end to all of this?

adakah ini yang dimaksudkan sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga?

tapi apakan daya. aku hanya mampu meratapi kehilangan. yang masih belum menunjukkan tanda2 ia kan berakhir. sampai bilakah aku akan terus merasa kehilangan? berat. terlalu berat. sangat2 berat..

ya Allah.. sangat-sangat berat.. :'(

mata aku merah lagi. air mata aku mengalir lagi. hidung aku tersumbat lagi. macam dah routine. macam dah jadi satu kemestian sekarang. tak sudah2. aku dah bosan, muak, tak larat.
bahu aku sudah tak terdaya nak memikul dugaan yang begitu berat. dah retak pun. retak menunggu belah. dah nak tertanggal dah.

tabah. cekal. sabar. kuat..
atau
gila. putus asa. putus harap. mengaku kalah.

which one do i choose?

it seems that it keeps coming. taking me by surprise. its like an ambush. it hits you where you least expected it.

now i know why people become crazy. why people commit suicide. why people do things that we deem stupid and unthinkable to human consciousness.

because i feel it too. its unbearable. it weakens your entire body. it blocks your sense of logic, stab you right in your heart and soul, close your will to live, it deprive you of hope. all the hope that you had left.

the hurricane may have past. but the dark cloud hovering above me doesnt seem to go away anytime sooner. a new storm may come again. i just dont know when. i just dont know what. could i be ready for it when it strike again? well, the answer is.. no.

is there a silver lining from all of this?

is there any light left for me at the end or the tunnel?

is there anything else left?

anything..

Hari Malang

today is officially the suckest and most fucked-up day of my work life, to date. i wont forget what happened to me in the boss office. in front of my fellow colleagues. who did he think i am? what do you expect? a messiah? or maybe and angel sent from heaven to save his soul (bonus+increment) from the devil (high budget+area manager) so that the world (damn personal life) can live in peace and harmony?

Fuck you la!!..


im no angel, superman, underdog (the movie), batman, spiderman, hollow man, or whatever fucking superhero that can do a lot of things in a blink of an eye.

what an irony right.. i just "best wishes" him the other day. well, human change.

Kek Hari Jadi

last monday was my boss's birthday. but he was on leave that day. so my assistant boss decided to make a simple birthday cum fathers day celebration the next morning. we had chess cake and nasi lemak. the nasi lemak was good and the blueberry chess cake was even better. secret recipe ma.

best wishes from me boss..

Kung Fu Panda

i always wanted to do a movie review. but as always, also, i didnt have the chance nor time to do it. but today im giving myself a chance AND time to do a short review.



well, where should i start. this movie is AWESOME!!! need i say more. it fun. its funny. its cool. its entertaining. so hurry up. get your tickets now!.. (chewah, macam iklan tv plak) i should get some kind of incentive for doing this you know.

but seriously im having fun watching this movie. :-)

NEXT: The Incredible Hulk

Selamat Hari Bapa

when i woke up this morning. i mean, afternoon (hey.. today is sunday what. give me a break) i received a msg from my mom and my elder sister. my mom wrote

"Takde sorang pun wish bpk FATHERS DAY!!?? Tak ingat ke? Kesian bpk."

shit! today is father's day. i almost forgot! well, i did remember. last month.. hehe.. my sis also remind me of about this special day today. as fast as lightning i immediately (sort of la) send my dad a msg wish him happy fathers day. then around 2pm my dad replied,

"Usha terus dgn keras inshaallah cita2 akan success. t kaseh"

my parent ah, always la, make me wanna cry you know. :-)

anyway, happy father's day to all fathers or fathers would be out there. wish all of you all the best life can give you.

and specially for my father. there are nothing else in this world that could take away my love for you. i couldnt possible repay you what you've done, your sacrifices, your care, your love, everything. you are truly the special one.

thanks for everything.

Mencari Ketenangan

it has been like 3 weeks since i log in to the internet. and it has been 3 weeks since i wrote anything.

a lot has happened. my new life. new job. new pressure. new problems. new everything. but its the same old me.

i went back to my hometown for nearly a week. heaven on earth for me. people say there is no place like home. i couldnt agree more.

home is the place where my mind is in peace. a place for a relaxation. a place where any food cooked by your parent or your siblings are no match anywhere in the world. calm and serene. well, close. but the most important of all, i have my family.

you can call me lucky coz i have a family. the best family. mom dad sisters. all are very supportive. understanding. loving. i couldnt care less about anything else. its my family that i care most.

my mom once replied my massage during a mother's day. she said,

" Must always keep in mind n heart that a MOTHER'S LOVE LAST A LIFETIME.
LUV U 2.
U are all VERY PRECIOUS 2 me."

it really touched me.

friends come and go. but our family should always be there for us. i will always have my family to turn to. whom will be there for me no matter what.

my home is really the place where i can find peace of mind. even though i dont have a lot of friends there. in fact, i only have 1 friend left. but he's married and he has his own family now. so i couldnt possibly 'disturb' him everyday like i used to but once in a while we went out and just lepak and talk about anything. life is good there. wish i can bring my family here. its just a wish.

anyway, now im back to kl. back to my obstacle. back to reality.

life must go on?