Raja Pecut Dunia

this guy is fast. no. let me rephrase. this guy is fucking fast! he's a speed demon! usain bolt. a name that i never have heard of before until he broke asafa powell 's 100m world record. and suddenly he was the king of sprint.

i am the king!: bolt posed besides his new world record time for 100m print event.

see ya sucker!: he was way infront of everyone as he crosses the finishing line.

firstly, he broke his own world 100m record. he even managed to slow down and thumped his chest in enroute to the finish line and STILL broke the world record. damn this guy was fast!
secondly, he won the 200m race and at the same time, broke micheal johson's previous world record by 0.02s faster. insane! this is madness..

this dude is unbelievable.

i am the king!.. again!: bolt beside his world record time in 200m event final.

huf.. huf..: other runners could only smell his fart. no challenge at all. kacang la beb..

Binatang

These few days i stumble upon a few lovely animal and i took the opportunity to take some pictures of them in action. just want to share it with err.. whom ever it may concern.

afternoon nap: i stumble upon this mother and kitten cat having a nap while i was choosing my lauk for lunch at kg baru.

posing baik: this canary was on show at one utama.

yum! yum!: maybe he's hungry.. really hungry..

Jangan Ada Ruang Untuk Penyesalan

as i was reading my sunday newspaper i came across a q&a in starmag under the heart & soul section, page 24. nevermind the question. the answer was what matter most. thelma wrote:

"whose face do you see when you think about the future? do you want to feel safe, familiar and acceptable? or do your prefer a relationship with someone who could make you feel loved, warmed and tender?

some women prefer practical predictability to wild heartbeat and passion. its a choice each individual has to make. and neither is right nor wrong. many of us walk through life passively and safely. some of us prefer adventures, risk and excitement. ultimately, its what we are that makes the difference.

some say love, passion and romance will fizzle out after marriage. some swear to great love and joy for a lifetime. most of us pretend that all is well. when pushed into a corner, we blame, cry and walk away yelling "foul"...

...be honest, sincere and rational if you can. it's never easy making choice when your heart is being pulled from different directions and your mind confuse.

...in time, you will have to make a choice. just do not leave room for regret"

just do not leave room for regret.

Selamat Pengantin Baru

i want to wish Selamat Pengantin Baru to my friend Norhaslinda Ismail and her hubby Abdullah Ab. Shukor on their wedding day last saturday, august 16, 2008 . sorry i couldnt stay longer because i had to send my friend back home. i couldnt be happier for you on your special day. i wish both of you the best in everything. may both of you live happily ever after.

all set: the ceremony was about to start.

walking down the isle: the bride and groom were paraded to the pelamin.

destiny: on the stage waiting for the tepung tawar ceremony.

Amin.

Chelsea 4 - 0 Portsmouth

english premier league officially start yesterday. and today is Chelsea's first game under the new coach luis felipe scolari or better known as big phil. what a great start to the season as Chelsea trash portsmouth 4-0 at stamford bridge. a goal each from joe cole, anelka, lampard and deco.

poor portsmouth. just last week they lost to man utd in carling cup final from panalties after extra time. well, what to do. life sucks.. hehehe..

i just watched the game and chelsea was awesome! they dominated the game. occasionally portsmouth did threatened once in a while but chelsea's solid defence stood firm untill the end of the match. i went down late to the mamak downstairs. just as i arrived there, anelka headed in the 2nd goal. magnificiento! the rest is history.

waarggh!: joe cole's reaction after scoring his and chelsea's first goal of the 2008/2009 season.

2nd goal: lampard scored from the penalty spot.

originally i thought i'd stay home and watched olympic badminton final between lee chong wei and lin dan. because i thought no mamak would screen a football match because the hot topic everyone talked about today was the badminton final and because i thought every mamak would only screen the badminton match. but i just tried my luck. and wallah! there was a mamak screening chelsea vs portsmouth game. so i just sit there. ordered a teh o limau panas and sit there untill the match ended.

not that i'm not patriotic. but i guess i just love to watch a football game. no offence to all malaysian. i wish lee chong wei all the best. malaysia boleh! (ermm.. btw, he lost the final. i just herd the news.)

well, i hope this is the beginning of a wonderful and prosper year for chelsea. and i wish chelsea will win the epl crown and ofcourse the elusive champions league trophy.

CHELSEA! CHELSEA! Chelsea Boleh!

yeeeeeeaaaaahhhhhh!!

Selamat Hari Jadi Namleys

HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY !

today, 11 august 2008, is the day you are getting 1 year older. happy 27th years oooooooold..

happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you.

saya doakan panjang umur dah murah rezeki.. semoga kebahagian kekal hingga ke akhir hayat...

Amin.

this song is for you.

08.08.08

today is 8th of august 2008, or

08.08.08

this is a special number for the chinese community because they believe the number 8 brings good luck (i think). for other people its the uniqueness of the date itself that makes it stand out. like 07.07.07 (last year) or 09.09.09 (next year).

so, its not unusual that a lot of special event took place today. im not particularly sure but i think the busiest person today is tok kadi's, father's, sami's or what ever they call them. yup, a lot of couples are getting married today (or already married by now). just this afternoon, soon after i finished my friday prayer, a group of people including the bride & the bridegroom to-be was seen entering a small hall at the mosque for akad nikah. so the tok imam(s) would probably be the busiest man today. i think our prime minister was way behind in terms of busy-ness. :-)

also today is the opening of the olympic games in beijing. the president of IOC is making a speech right now as i type this blog to officiate the opening of the olympic games. and not surprisingly they choose today as the special day. they really have this cool-ass stadium that they call bird's nest and this cool-ass aquatic stadium for the swimming events.

Beijing Olympic 2008: this is this year's olympic logo.

"The beautiful architectural monstrosity is a testimony to China’s love for “biomimicry”; a pseudo term that references large massive buildings modeled after nature. The Olympic stadium is shaped like a bird’s nest with intertwining metal girders that resemble gentle chopsticks—and is symbolic of China’s political volatility and complex nature. In just a couple of months, China will attempt to unravel the bird’s nest of political and environmental problems to show to the world that buried deep within the nest, are the golden eggs of this country’s true beauty." - offthechang.wordpress.com/

Aquatic Stadium? : architectural genius. or simply, a kick-ass stadium!

Olympic Medals: cool!

Olympic Torch: super cool!

i also dont want to be left out in making something for this date. actually i dont know what to do nor do i have anything specific in mind. so i thought i'd write a blog on this date. jadilah kan. hehe..

What is Happiness, Happy?

bahagia. kebahagiaan.

apakah yang sebenarnya yang dimaksudkan dengan kebahagiaan? apakah definisi bahagia? dimanakah kita boleh mencari bahagia? sesetengah manusia tidak ada masalah dengan kebahagiaan. tapi ada sebahagian pula tidak bernasib baik dengan kebahagian.

aku ingin sangat tahu apakah sebenarnya definisi bahagia? kebahagiaan? kebahagiaan yang hakiki adalah cinta kepada Allah SWT. itu aku tahu. maksud aku cinta, sayang terhadap sesuatu perkara, barang, benda, manusia, haiwan, apa saja. boleh kah kita bahagia kerana cinta, sayang? atau, walaupun kedua-duanya ada tidak semestinya kita akan mengecap kebahagiaan.

kenapa?

cinta? ada.. sayang? ada.. bahagia?.. tak.. aik, macam mana tu?.. mana mungkin boleh tak bahagia.

aku tak faham.. tak faham... betul-betul tak faham. kadang-kadang cinta, sayang ada tapi yang datang merana, sengsara. mana perginya bahagia? kenapa tak bahagia walupun dah sayang sepenuh hati, dah cinta sehingga ke mati, lautan api sanggup ku renangi?

why?

adakah ini yang kita panggil kehidupan? atau dengan lebih tepat lagi, dugaan?.. adussss.. pening.. pening!!! aku tak boleh tersalah cakap. aku tak boleh tersalah kata. binasa. kang tak pasal-pasal aku kena panah petir. sebab bila kita frust, tertekan, tension, sengsara, kita persoalkan "kenapa?".. lepas tu kita marah dengan yang Maha Esa sebab kenapa kita? kenapa terlalu hebat? sampai tak tertanggung bahu, kepala.. tak termampu nak berdiri. kaki lemah. kepala melilau. badan tak bermaya. putus asa.

kenapa aku tak boleh bersama orang yang aku sayang? baru aku tahu erti sebenar sengsara. selama ini aku hanya sebut-sebut, baca, dengar. tapi rupanya... dasyat! jangan sebut kalau tak pernah rasa. setakat sengsara menahan nafsu nak makan kfc, aku terajang kang.

aku sedih. :'-(

jantung ni bagaikan nak berhenti berdegup. selama ini aku mengharap. walau banyak sudah petanda aku dapat. tapi aku degil. aku melawan. aku buat tak tau. aku buat tak paham. aku tak peduli. mungkin sebab aku menaruh harap. aku berharap. maybe, just maybe there is some kind of hope? even a little? tiny teenie weenie? seciput ke? sebesar zarah ke?

tapi kan, kita juga yang disogok dengan perkataan 'YAKIN'. yakin boleh buat, yakin berjaya, yakin jadi, kena ada keyakinan baru berjaya, kena yakin dengan diri sendiri, yakin dengan jalan yang dipilih, yakin dengan pilihan hati, confident.. keyakinan.. aku pun dah tanam sifat tu ape? aku yakin kami akan bersama, yakin kami akan bahagia, yakin dia mesti jadi aku punya, yakin.. yakin...

sebab tu aku singkirkan semua, aku buat tak paham, aku buat tak reti, aku buat-buat tak nampak, tak perasan. sebab aku YAKIN. tapi keadaan sekarang telah melunturkan keyakinan aku. belum hilang sepenuhnya tapi makin lama makin hampir hilang. sikit.. sikit..

aku cuba pertahan kan keyakinan. cuba. mesti. tahan dulu. kekang. sebab aku betul-betul takut. aku takut aku jadi tak siuman. senget. sebab aku tak boleh kehilangan lagi. tak boleh. aku yakin. degil kan?

aku nak bahagia. aku nak kebahagiaan. aku minta satu saja. bahagia.

where are you?

4 Ogos

today is the 4th august.

actually i was reminded by my beloved handset that today is the 4th of august. at 1300 hours i saw it blinked. suddenly, i stopped doing whatever i did and i froze.

it was supposed to be the 8th year. but it was not meant to be. a few month short. im not dwelling on the past. but this particular date remind me so much of the past. it just happened. so maybe next year i'll forget about it. just maybe. but for this year, not yet. im so sorry. i just cant help it. im such a loser. ive said it so many times. i know. maybe everybody is sick of it.

so much love, so much anger, so much tears. with whom i can share it? no one. i dont know what to say. i dont know what to write. my brain is numb. so many things going pass through my head right know. good things. great things. happy things. the things that i want to remember.

she seemed content to open a new chapter in her book, a new beginning, a new episode, a new life. i always pray for the best for her. nothing less.

im so sorry dear. for all the things i'd done. i regret for all the pain, tears and scars that i did. right now nothing else matters more to me than to seek your forgiveness. the pain in me will remain for as long as i live. that i assured you. mungkin ini jalan takdirku.

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
Tiada lagi bersama

Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku

PC Fair

i went to PC fair last saturday at kl convention center last saturday with one of my colleagues (abg fizul) and the other one was my colleague's husband (abg iqram). so the three of us went to klcc (the shopping mall) to park our bikes there then we walked to the klcc (the fair). shit. both have the same acronyms. its damn confusing man.

neways, actually we went there to accompany abg fizul because he wanted to buy a laptop. so me and abg iqram was sort of his guide and consultant la. consultant tuh... hehehe.. konon la kan. abg iqram was the pro here because he's working as an IT person. so im the bullshit one la. i know to little. even to myself.

its somewhere before noon we already arrived there but the crowd was like all over the place like ants! the place was jammed packed with consumers buying all sorts of everything that had to do with computers. you name it, they got it. after a few hours of mingling through the crowd, booth and, of course, promoters (damn sexy girls!), we (me and abg iqram) decided that, given the budget, we opt to buy this 1 particular laptop. abg fizul even manage to subscribe a broadband service. i manage to grab a few things myself. cheap thngs arond $20 only. i had to tahan nafsu. if not, makan daun cecah pasir la aku.

Ants walking around to and from PC Fair.

we were tired as hell that day. fuh.. and hungry. then we went back to our branch. test the laptop and broadband there. abg hafizul treat us lunch (at 4pm). then back home.

gosh... what a day..

Chelsea FC vs Malaysia XI.. Bahagian 2.

CHELSEA FC VS MALAYSIA XI
SHAH ALAM STADIUM
28 JULY 2008
8:45 PM

How to describe it...

once in a lifetime opportunity, dreams, wish, u name it its all there. finally... Finally! i WATCHED Chelsea played in front of my very own fucking eyes!!.. my two fucking eyes! (albeit about roughly 200m from the stand but who cares. this is Chelsea FC im talking about) not some mppj fc or johor fc or kelab bolasepak kg ulu tembeling or whatever.. this is THE football club. the best football club in the world.. (so to other club supporters that doesnt agree with me.. well then, fuck off. this is my blog. make your own blog. no offense,k..)

aaaaaaaaarrrggghhhhh!!!!!!!! im in a state of hysteria. lebih kurang la..

so what or how do i feel? im lost for words la actually. to sum it all, im so very fully undoubtedly yours truly sincerely unmistakably confirmly (is there such word?) very very very very very very happy. yey!..

i really still just cant believe it. i was so excited that day. wearing my Chelsea FC t-shirt. went to the shah alam stadium with my "other football club supporters' friends. pak rem (chelsea), imran (liverpool) and ijad (man utd). the four of us were really having a hell of fun that night. shouting and stuff. mostly kutuking malaysian players la. (sorry guys..).

truthful saying, i think most of the Malaysian player were not playing with their country at heart but actually its for the Chelsea's jersey at heart. common just admit it man. as soon as the final whistle blow some of you took off your jersey and quickly asked for an exchange of their jersey before your mates cuts you off. hell, maybe you can take back your own jersey that you gave them in their dressing room's trash bin after they left.. hahahaha... no offense.. again.. im such a foul mouth person.. ;-)

actually we were late that night mostly because of the horrible traffic. when we finally arrived inside the stadium it was around 60% full capacity and by half hour through the game it was around 70% full. i think. but it was a lot of Chelsea fans out there (and some of other clubs' fans). some even wears their club's jersey to watch Chelsea's game. what the fuck?..

i cant wait for the start of english premier league this coming season. Chelsea certainly have the fire power to cruise to the top of the league and along the way bagging europe's top prize, plus some other trophies available. but for me the league and the champions league trophy are the utmost important silverware that i want to see in the Chelsea's grasp this season. God's will.

so for Chelsea FC, from deep down of my heart, thank you for making my dream come true. i'll never forget this special day for the rest of my life. may this season be the best season in your club's history. so, luis felipe scolari, unleash your magic! and to all the players, no more no. 2 ok. enough is enough. its time for you to kick everybody else's ass!!

see you at the top bro. :-)

Chelsea FC vs Malaysia XI.. Bahagian 1.

Bermimpi Di Siang Hari

this few days i actually remember my dreams. usually i didnt remember it but these few days i actually did. for me its rare la. dreams about someone. and when i woke up i feel sad. i hate these kind of dreams. i think everyone also hate it. its was so much better if i hadnt remember anything at all. coz it makes my day sucks.

i have a new addition to my 'family'. even if she's not the same but i'll love her as much as i loved everything else that is dear to me. this time i'll do my best to take good care of her. very good care. i'll try to not make the same mistake again. no more taking for granted. no more carelessness.

Hellboy II: The Golden Army

i watched Hellboy II: The Golden Army yesterday. well, its ok la. nothing much to say actually. the graphic was ok. but maybe the storyline was a bit boring. but then its not that bad.
i just LOVE this guy, RED. he's like a tough guy but he's also a soft devil. he love cats and he really2 love his girlfriend so much. so i think he's sort of a role model la. so, if you have nothing to do then go and watch this movie.

Komplen je

on wednesday, 9 July 2008, sambalkicap wrote:

today i had a meeting with ass. area manager of area 5. well, yet again, makan hati berulam jantung. i tried not to talk too much because its like you are wasting your spit.

and yet again i complained about the 'beating' i had today. i complain too much arent i? well, im so sorry. i need to take it out from my system.

and once again my bad days continued. i think 'having a bad day' is not a really suitable word anymore. because that day came so often that its not that particular anymore or as seldom as it should be. so i think this 'bad day' shouldnt be highlited or mentioned because it has already become a routine thingy.

there seems to be something 'bad' or 'not so good'or 'unlucky' or what ever you may called it, would happened to me every so often. i cant even manage to catch my breath.

so what should i do?

well, my friends, i'll just have to ride the wave babe. a loser's statement right? well, who give a damn anyway. i might get used to it. i might not. so, we'll see how it goes then.

will it ever end?

are you kidding me.. common bro. this is just the beginning. there are lots and lots more to come. so watch your back. expect the unexpected...

Bas Penuh

Tuesday, 8 July 2008. sambalkicap wrote:

today was one of those day where luck was not on my side.

on the way back to my office from meeting a customer at wangsa maju, i had to walk all the way from central market to a bus stop near bangunan mara. why? because i didnt know where i should take the bus ride to my office. i know which bus but i just didnt know where to wait for it in kl. damn far!

then later after work while i was waiting to catch the bus home, 2 different busses that were going to my place came at the same time. how lucky i am... NOT.. why? because BOTH busses were packed with passangers like a tin sardin. i mean, there were even some passangers standing at the door steps thus the door cant even be closed. it was that full! so, i just watched helplessly both busses past me by.

im so tired. im so frustrated. im so unlucky.

Identiti Terbongkar

IDENTITI PEMILIK SEBENAR CHELSEA

TERBONGKAR

KUALA LUMPUR: Identiti sebenar pemilik kelab bolasepak terkenal dan terhebat di eropah, Chelsea FC, akhirnya terbongkar apabila seorang peminat setia kelab itu secara tidak sengaja terserempak dengan individu terbabit ketika balik bercuti ke kampung halaman. Ketika ditanya, Harismovich, atau nama sebenarnya Mohd Adam Haris, yang berusia hampir 2 tahun, menafikan sekeras-kerasnya dakwaan itu.

Segala-galanya berubah apabila pada suatu ketika, beliau menerima satu panggilan telefon dari seorang individu yang tidak dikenali dan peminat setia tadi terdengar nama pengurus pasukan Chelsea FC yang baru iaitu Lius Felipe Scolari atai "Big Phil", seperti yang dikenali di media massa, dalam perbualan mereka. Peminat setia tersebut sempat merakamkan beberapa keping gambar dengan menggunakan kamera telefon bimbitnya sebelum diusir pengawal peribadi Harismovich. Berikut adalah perbualan yang sempat di dengar oleh peminat setia tadi.

Harismovich: wei!!.. aku dah kate ko jangan kecoh-kecoh! sekarang semer orang dah tau. kantoi tol la ko ni.. sape nak explain ni. jawab! jawab!..

Harismovich: oh ye ke?.. bukan ko ke yang kecoh?.. laa, ye ke.. sorry la bro.. ntah la.. weh, mamypoko tu uncle aku beli kat kl. ok la. selesa la jugak..

Harisnovich: hmm.. aku tak sure la. tapi aku rasa harga dia dalam $40 mil la.. tu la pasal.. tapi nak wat macam mane. aku nak player macam dia... melawan plak.. aku tak bayar gaji ko kang..

Harisnovich: Hish!.. sengal tol. dah la tak ngaku.. season depan kalau tak perform mampos ko. aku sumbat henpon ni dalam b****t ko..

Setelah menyedari dia diperhatikan, Harismovich segera meniggalkan kawasan itu bersama pengawal-pengawal peribadinya dengan menaiki sebuah kereta yang kelihatan seperti kancil 850cc yang dimiliki ibunya, dipercayai sebagai kenderaan samaran supaya indentitinya tidak diketahui umum. Sehingga kini pihak Chelsea FC masih gagal dihubungi untuk mendapatkan pengesahan. - REUTER-

Khidmat Nasihat

i really miss the world wide web.

im really looking forward every week(ends) to have a time like this. this is my world. this is what i enjoy most. i once looking forward to my permanent rest day so that i can enjoy that day with someone. but time pass by. so this is my life now.

i had a very good advice today. a very good one infact from my colleague. he was like a big brother to me. about work, about people, about marriage. mostly from his experience as an employee since he was 18 years old and a married guy since 21 years old!

yup.. you heard me right. we called it the magic number. 21. why? coz at that age we are not a juvinile anymore and we can make our own decision (as far as the court is concern) and we can go straight to jail with 20 stroke of rottan or the death setence even (where applicable) if convicted with any felony. hehehe... so no rumah tunas bakti or henry gurney or what ever for you my friend. :-)

i learned a lot from him. especially about (current) work and marriage. thanx bro. just imagine his eldest children is 10 years old and he is only 32! so you can imagine the degree of sacrifices that he had done. things that people like us wont even dare think, let alone commit. i have totally huge respect for this guy.

actually i had wrote something in my notepad while i was a public transport person. but i keep forgeting it. well, maybe next time.

Lokasi.. Lokasi.. Lokasi

i thought i heard it so many times. location is one of the main factors on the road to success. but yesterday was a different story.

it was my first roadshow. dengan bestnye they gave us a target of 20 application for each product we sell. and guest how many customers we get?
zero.. none.. kosong.. takde sekor pun.. nothing.. hampeh!

why?

because all the supposedly experience, clever, 'ottai', very good central processing unit, somewhere in the upper ancheleon of area 5 suggested that we do a roadshow at a place to received and send parcel on weekends instead of weekdays where the customers were almost non-existant and the staff were barely awake or dying of boredness.

there was even a statement saying that it will be busy around noon when the fact that one employee said that it would be the case ONLY if it's on weekdays. how wonderful is that! all said and done. i think these people ought to learn more about marketing. not that i'm saying that i'm cleverer than they are but i think my common sense is much better. i mean just use your logic bro. Logic..

Gosh! egos are everywhere..

Kembara Jalanan.. Yang Penat ;-)

its been a week since i used public transportation. its different, its tiring but honestly, im kind of enjoying myself. strange but its true!.. :-) not that i like it but somewhere in between, its been like a somewhat a revelation. a lesson if i may call it.

its been like, oh, maybe between 4 to 8 years ago since i used the public transportations. yes its that long-loooong time ago. before i bought my scooter that is. well, i did used it occasionally but not as entirely dependent on it as these past week. i used it all-well almost; bus (selangor bus,rapid,metro,sj bus), taxi, commuter, star and putra lrt (now both known as rapid kl i think).

that is why its been like 2 weeks i didnt wrote anything because it's really difficult to go anywhere without any transport. usually i went here at night-coz its cooler and convenient. but today i went here in the afternoon. catching the selangor bus. waiting for it is one thing, not paying for it is another.. hehe.. hey.. i didnt purposely not paying for the fares but its just one stop away and the bus conductor still at the middle of the bus collecting fares from other passengers when i arrived at my stop. so i just alighted from the bus and went on. sorry conductor. i'll pay you next time..

one funny thing happened to me this week was, on the way back from work, im sooooo tired and tertido while inside the bus on my journey back to my house. all of the sudden i woke up and realise that i overslept and the bus had already arrived at its final stop and there was no more passanger around! there i was dumbfounded and confuse and high.. the driver was already standing outside the bus doing nothing. i sat for awhile. regain my consciousness and decided to walk back home. its not too far but its already 9pm and im tired and disillusion and i pissed of with the bus driver or the passenger besides me for not waking me up. but actually its me, myself and i whom were at fault and nobody else. when i think back it makes me, and my mom, laugh! yes i told her about the 'incident'. she even sarcastically sms me the next day weather i overslept again.. grrr!!!

as a normal citizen using the public transport, it really got me thinking. i watched all walks of life going about their own business. there are more to life that we never see. there are so much going on. i watched the young and the old, the poor and the rich, the not so poor nor rich. the beauty and the beast. the basikal apek and the aprilla's or ducati's. the viva's and the mercedes brabus. different races, nationality, age, all have their own stories to tell. all have something going on somewhere. by using public transportation you'll get to watch how life really goes on around you. believe me you'll only get to watched this side of life by foot. its most of us nowadays are not willing to do even myself. if not by chance i lost my scooter then maybe i wouldnt even notice there's more going on in life other than the oil price hike and political tsunami that rage our society currently that overshadows our sight to the more important and urgent manner to be resolve such as livelihood of the poor or the safety or our fellow commuters or even the fate of stray cats and dogs all over the city.

yes even animals have their right to live alongside us in this world. we share this world, remember?..

kembara aku pergi balik kerja menyedarkan aku terlalu banyak aku perlu pelajari dari kehidupan. terlalu banyak aku tertinggal dalam belajar erti hidup yang sebenar. setiap rupa, setiap kudrat, setiap gaya, menyimpan seribu satu cerita. manakala perjalanan hidup aku sendiri sebenarnya banyak mengajar aku betapa kerdilnya aku sebagai manusia. betapa biasanya aku. aku umpama jatuh ke bumi semula. aku ni sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga. sudah la ditimpa tangga, kaki aku pula tersepit dan cedera parah.

actually its like a down memory lane thing for me. when i used to depend on the buses or taxis to get me anywhere. its a de javu sort of thing. one particular memory was when i used to catch the hideously, crap, junk, worthy of metal scrap, smelly feet conductor, crazy driver that either he thinks he's a formula one driver or very slow driver that a 45 minute journey took more than 1 and a half hour to arrives of selangor omni bus co. ltd.

we will see how its gonna be next week. hopefully im fully awake until the last stop. :-)

Dimanakah noktah?

Sunday. June 29, 2008

i dont know where to start.

last friday. on june 27, 2008. i received another big, no, its a huge blow to my already crumbling life. some fucking pig had stolen my scooter.

yes. my beloved scooter. the scooter that i love so much. the scooter that my parent gave me. the scooter that was always there for me. through my ups and down. through happiness and laughter. through hardship and pain. through sadness and sorrow.

i dont have much of an anything in my life. but just in less than 5 month i lost these few things that i hold dear. the only things i had left. infact in dont have anything more to hold on to except for one. my inspiron? oh God please dont.

my love life, my adidas sweater, my friends and now my scooter.

2008 is the year that i would really want to forget. but ironnically, its the year it will also be remembered for the rest of my life.

is there an end to my misfortune? is there actually an end to all of this?

adakah ini yang dimaksudkan sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga?

tapi apakan daya. aku hanya mampu meratapi kehilangan. yang masih belum menunjukkan tanda2 ia kan berakhir. sampai bilakah aku akan terus merasa kehilangan? berat. terlalu berat. sangat2 berat..

ya Allah.. sangat-sangat berat.. :'(

mata aku merah lagi. air mata aku mengalir lagi. hidung aku tersumbat lagi. macam dah routine. macam dah jadi satu kemestian sekarang. tak sudah2. aku dah bosan, muak, tak larat.
bahu aku sudah tak terdaya nak memikul dugaan yang begitu berat. dah retak pun. retak menunggu belah. dah nak tertanggal dah.

tabah. cekal. sabar. kuat..
atau
gila. putus asa. putus harap. mengaku kalah.

which one do i choose?

it seems that it keeps coming. taking me by surprise. its like an ambush. it hits you where you least expected it.

now i know why people become crazy. why people commit suicide. why people do things that we deem stupid and unthinkable to human consciousness.

because i feel it too. its unbearable. it weakens your entire body. it blocks your sense of logic, stab you right in your heart and soul, close your will to live, it deprive you of hope. all the hope that you had left.

the hurricane may have past. but the dark cloud hovering above me doesnt seem to go away anytime sooner. a new storm may come again. i just dont know when. i just dont know what. could i be ready for it when it strike again? well, the answer is.. no.

is there a silver lining from all of this?

is there any light left for me at the end or the tunnel?

is there anything else left?

anything..

Hari Malang

today is officially the suckest and most fucked-up day of my work life, to date. i wont forget what happened to me in the boss office. in front of my fellow colleagues. who did he think i am? what do you expect? a messiah? or maybe and angel sent from heaven to save his soul (bonus+increment) from the devil (high budget+area manager) so that the world (damn personal life) can live in peace and harmony?

Fuck you la!!..


im no angel, superman, underdog (the movie), batman, spiderman, hollow man, or whatever fucking superhero that can do a lot of things in a blink of an eye.

what an irony right.. i just "best wishes" him the other day. well, human change.

Kek Hari Jadi

last monday was my boss's birthday. but he was on leave that day. so my assistant boss decided to make a simple birthday cum fathers day celebration the next morning. we had chess cake and nasi lemak. the nasi lemak was good and the blueberry chess cake was even better. secret recipe ma.

best wishes from me boss..

Kung Fu Panda

i always wanted to do a movie review. but as always, also, i didnt have the chance nor time to do it. but today im giving myself a chance AND time to do a short review.



well, where should i start. this movie is AWESOME!!! need i say more. it fun. its funny. its cool. its entertaining. so hurry up. get your tickets now!.. (chewah, macam iklan tv plak) i should get some kind of incentive for doing this you know.

but seriously im having fun watching this movie. :-)

NEXT: The Incredible Hulk

Selamat Hari Bapa

when i woke up this morning. i mean, afternoon (hey.. today is sunday what. give me a break) i received a msg from my mom and my elder sister. my mom wrote

"Takde sorang pun wish bpk FATHERS DAY!!?? Tak ingat ke? Kesian bpk."

shit! today is father's day. i almost forgot! well, i did remember. last month.. hehe.. my sis also remind me of about this special day today. as fast as lightning i immediately (sort of la) send my dad a msg wish him happy fathers day. then around 2pm my dad replied,

"Usha terus dgn keras inshaallah cita2 akan success. t kaseh"

my parent ah, always la, make me wanna cry you know. :-)

anyway, happy father's day to all fathers or fathers would be out there. wish all of you all the best life can give you.

and specially for my father. there are nothing else in this world that could take away my love for you. i couldnt possible repay you what you've done, your sacrifices, your care, your love, everything. you are truly the special one.

thanks for everything.

Mencari Ketenangan

it has been like 3 weeks since i log in to the internet. and it has been 3 weeks since i wrote anything.

a lot has happened. my new life. new job. new pressure. new problems. new everything. but its the same old me.

i went back to my hometown for nearly a week. heaven on earth for me. people say there is no place like home. i couldnt agree more.

home is the place where my mind is in peace. a place for a relaxation. a place where any food cooked by your parent or your siblings are no match anywhere in the world. calm and serene. well, close. but the most important of all, i have my family.

you can call me lucky coz i have a family. the best family. mom dad sisters. all are very supportive. understanding. loving. i couldnt care less about anything else. its my family that i care most.

my mom once replied my massage during a mother's day. she said,

" Must always keep in mind n heart that a MOTHER'S LOVE LAST A LIFETIME.
LUV U 2.
U are all VERY PRECIOUS 2 me."

it really touched me.

friends come and go. but our family should always be there for us. i will always have my family to turn to. whom will be there for me no matter what.

my home is really the place where i can find peace of mind. even though i dont have a lot of friends there. in fact, i only have 1 friend left. but he's married and he has his own family now. so i couldnt possibly 'disturb' him everyday like i used to but once in a while we went out and just lepak and talk about anything. life is good there. wish i can bring my family here. its just a wish.

anyway, now im back to kl. back to my obstacle. back to reality.

life must go on?

Lambaian Terakhir

sunday, 25th may 2008. was my last day working at JMP.

i dont know where to start. a lot of things to say. a lot of memories to share. good bad. it may seems not that long-3 years-but for me these 3 years was actually the years that really make the difference in my life.

between these years, a lot of things has happened. important things. events that totally change the course of my life.

TOTALLY.

the best thing happened to me during these years.
the worst thing also happened to me during these years.
the happiest and the saddest.
happy. sad. uncertainty. all mixed up in my head right now. scared. scared what lies ahead. scared what will happen?

Pasrah

sad.
hurt.
painful.
agonizing.
sucks!

utterly devastated. the more suitable words to sum it all.

this was the champions league cup we're talking here. not some domestic cup. to wait for 5 years for the final was one thing. but to watched them lose-with a sudden death penalty kick-was another thing.

it really was painful. and still is. one kick away to be the champion. one slip and its gone. GONE!

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

i felt really sorry for the lads. they worked so hard for it. especially john terry. i read in the papers that he was inconsolable. he cried from the final whistle blows, in the dressing room, while boarding the team bus.


[JT missed the crucial penalty]

i think lady luck was kidnapped by man utd fan that night. :-)

as for me on why am i so devastated?

1) coz i'm a chelsea fan la of course
2) what ever reasons all chelsea fans around the world gives. same with me.
3) i went to hartamas with my friend (not a chelsea fan but a barca fan that supports man utd that night coz he made a nigger-a chelsea fan-angry while at the gym where he work-out) and watched the whole match from the first whistle till the last spot-kick. and the best part was, we watched it WHILE STANDING FOR THE WHOLE 3 HOURS!

yup.. you heard me. S-T-A-N-D-I-N-G. why? coz its full house that night. mostly man utd fans (around 80%-i think). no seats. no chairs. not a single one available (that was visible to us la) that night.

i felt that my legs were going to explode that night. considering you stand for 3 hours.

was it worth it? yes and no. yes because its the FINAL. no because chelsea LOST. but i'm really proud of the team that night. they played with their heart and soul. mybe next year is chelsea's year.

so. what past is past. there's nothing we could do. we'll just hope for the best for next season. hopefully chelsea will bounce back stronger next season. who ever plays, who ever the coach, manager or assistant manager will be, i just hope that chelsea will win some trophy (if not all!) next season.

there is so much to say, so much to type. hehe.. but i think its enough for tonight. next stop, UERO CUP 2008 here we come!

Germany! Germany! Germany!

~ A Chelsea fan. And always a Chelsea fan! ~

Doa Dari Kejauhan

Tuesday, 20 May 2008

if you want someone to be happy, sometimes you need to take all the shit that comes with it.but if taking all the shit are necessary to make them happy, then so be it.

even if you are not part of the happiness, then so be it.

if you could only watched from afar, then so be it.

if it means that you have to endure all the guilt , pain, tears, loneliness through the uncertainty of what lies ahead in our life, then so be it.

and if the only thing you can do is pray. pray for their safety, or health, or success, or happiness..

then so be it.

even if it really kills you watching them smile, laugh, having fun and you are not anywhere to be seen in the picture then you have to swallow it.

sepahit mana pun yang melalui anak tekak, pejamkan mata, butakan rasa. jika itu sahaja harga yang perlu dibayar untuk melihat sebuah kebahagian untuk orang yang tersayang.

so be it.

Biasakan Diri

i'm still getting used to it.

give me some time.

any time.

Kelahiran

they say when someone dies, another soul is born.

well, that might be true. when the world were shocked by the devastating earthquake that hit China with thousands of casualties, a soul was born here. a baby boy.

congratulations to pn. nurul with the latest edition to her family. we went to visit her yesterday (friday). actually i went there by chance coz my asst manager had asked me to replace her. she had a meeting that time. so i obligingly followed the rest of the party to a maternity clinic at wangsa maju.

the healthy baby was born on thursday at around 11pm. weighted at somewhere over 3kg. i think its 3.4kg. that was a lot of weight for a new born baby. at that time no name was given yet. pn. nurul looked fine and healthy after the operation. she had to undergo a ceaserian (is my spelling right?) coz her baby's something is entangle somewhere. i'm not sure what it is but she's fine.

he's such a cute baby boy. sleeping while her other children were playing around and shouting a lot. :-)

i wonder if i could hold one of my own.

maybe.

Tahniah

congratulations. is the only thing that i could convey to you. i always pray for your success. deep down i know you can do it. you have the determination. you have the will to succeed. and most important of all you have the support of everyone around you. family, loved ones.

this is actually the beginning of a journey. we never know what lies ahead. but with the kind of person you are. intelligent, smart, hardworking, resourceful. it will be just like a bump on the road to success. stay strong dear. just stay strong.

i believe in you.

i never stop to say a little prayer for you.

Tak Ada Rezeki

it was not meant to be. so close yet so far. hard as it may seems but man utd is the EPL champions 2007/2008 season. Congrats to man utd team. and to their supporters... NOT! for Chelsea team and supporters, maybe next year.

but dont forget we still have one more cup to grab. The champions league cup ofcourse. hopefully chelsea will not end this year empty-handed. the biggest prize of them all. please la give us something to cheer on to. or something to brag to other supporters. i reaally need to shut them up. hehehe...

i cant wait to watch the final match. what ever the result is i'm sure i'm ready for it. even if its not in our favour. is it?.. ;-)

hope is not lost.

Penentuan Juara

tonight is the night. we will see two of the best EPL teams fight all the way to the wire. Will Man Utd will be crown champion or will Chelsea nicked them for the glory? As far as i'm concerned, Chelsea (the great) has nothing to lose while Man Utd has everything to lose for.

but the shit is, all games are played at once. so for Chelsea fans out there, get an Astro. i really wish i could watch Chelsea's final game. :-( but i dont think i'll manage to find any mamak restaurant showing Chelsea's game tonite. in my dreams maybe.

truthfully, whatever the result is, i'm proud with my team. they started this season with nothing but could ended it with something. they are even in the final of UEFA Champion League. who would thought Chelsea are in the final? but they will on 21 of May 2008 at Luzhniki Stadium in Moscow, Russia.

so the best of luck to Chelsea team. i'll say, if we fail the league then go all out for ECL honour. i believe all of you can do it.

Chelsea Rulezz!

Teruskan Perjalanan

move on.

easier said then done. when you are at the losing side, time is the biggest enemy. when there is no more feeling left then no one can do anything. can everyone do it? i mean seriously? realisticaly? the standard answer is:

"ofcourse. people should move on. why ponder when it will only hurt you more. pick yourself up. move straight. dont ever look back. if i or A or B or C or whoever can do it why cant you."

"get a grip of yourself. this is not the end of the world."

"be strong. be brave. hope is not lost.so.. be strong."

"you stupid loser! you are such a faggot. come on! there are like.. thousands, even millions of -the other species- around. just take a pick and go with the ride."

etc.. etc..

fuck! dont you think these people doesnt know the answers are! if it was that easy then, damn! it wouldnt be such a problem right?.. yes, some people can do it and why not you? well, hello.. if we are created the same then why bother moving on. hell, that phrase might not even exist. that is why we are called humans that are blessed
with feelings and emotions. we are born different. even twins are not the same. some poeple can some people cant. some people just need a few days the least BUT some other need, maybe a life time. and some people need between a few days and a lifetime. so, when is it? not a fucking clue..

who doesnt want to move on. i mean some people may want to 'move' to another 'world' because this world is to much for them but we must remember that there are people that are still want to live their life but just dont know what to do. when they are at the wrong side of the road, sometimes, they are lost.

they wish it could be that easy. letting go. that is the first thing they must do before any 'moving on' can be done. but time. they need time. for the time being, time is not at their side. tell me who love suffering? let me smacked them in the head and tell me what hurt really felt like. past can really haunts. its like a neverending retribution. never want to let them slip away so they will suffer for as long as they are still breathing.

moving on.

wish it is as simple as turning on the switch. dont tell us you understand. because you never will.

easier said than done.

Cinta? Sengsara?

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness.
So.. which one is it?!..

to love or to suffer?.."

Kira Stok

last monday, 28th may, was my last monthly stock take day. and coincidently we were counting my department's stock. i have great, and not so great memories about stock take day. whether it was monthly or annually. but all were in good heart. the good one i keep. the not so good one i also keep. because it was one of those things that you couldnt possibly forget (unless you have amnesia).

i'll miss the tension. the sweat. the tiredness. the going home late. the wrong counting. the 'brapa banyak lagi?', 'dah abis kira?'. the laughing. the fun. the mockery. the foolishness. the swearing. the 'fuck'ing. etc.. just imagine, one of it was finished at 4:30am-arrived home at 5:00am-slept at 6:00am-woke up at 8:30am-strated work at 9:30am. its insane!

especially the annual and bi-annual where the tension was the highest every year. it was a hell of experience for me. something that i could tell (brag!) my friends, kids or even my grandkids (if i have any).

i'llm miss everything..

CHELSEA ke final UEFA Liga Juara Juara Eropah!

Behold! Chelsea are through to the FINAL of UEFA Champions League! the 1st time in its history, Chelsea shot down Liverfool at Stamford Bridge and with a 3-2 scoreline and 4-3 aggregate to step into the final of one of the biggest and most prestigious club football event in the history of this planet. the Champions League final! yeaaahh baby yeaaahhh!!!

it was worth all the nervousness, the tensions, the swearing, the 'waiting the game to start at 2:30am', the 'sitting alone amidst of liverfool supporters at the mamak where i watched the game'. the 'watching the game went into extra time'. it was one of those nerve wrecking experience! but it was worth it. very satisfying. the satisfaction i felt may be better that sex. well... maybe not. but then again it was truly an amazing night. for Chelsea fans! muahahaha!

the only scratch that night was the fact that our opponent manage to score, finally, at stamford bridge after 4 years of unsuccessful attempt. but with the likes of torres playing, anything is possible. he is a damn good player. bro, u are in the wrong team la. if he wants to win anything next season or the season after, Chelsea is the club for u.. hahaha!..

i cant wait for the final at Moscow on 21st May 2008 (22nd in Malaysia). i already change my shift(hehehe!) just for the sake of watching the final game. i wouldnt want to miss this for anything else. this is one of those (maybe) once is a lifetime game thing for me. coz i dont know when will i ever watch Chelsea in champions league final again. this is not league cup u know. making to the final is one thing but winning it is a bonus. and a big one!

for Chelsea fans out there lets hope for the best and dont u miss the finals in moscow ok. Chelsea will be the champions! the lion will eat the devil. MU fans, u r going down sucker. DOWN!.. hehehe... (no offence,k)

Chelsea x2...
Chelsea x2...
Chelsea rules!
We r the champion...
my friend..
cos we'll keep on fighting till he end..

LONG LIVE CHELSEA!!

Bohsan

one of those boring days... yawn...

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Makan Malam Tahunan

last tuesday, 8th april 2008, we had our annual dinner at dewan merdeka, PWTC. everybody was in morning shift and everyone leaves at 6pm coz the event starts at 8pm. well, how do i sum it? crazy, ok and not ok.

the crazy part: i put on a show! yup, you heard me right. well not alone la of course. i dont know what got into me. but suddenly i was involved in it. gosh! until this day i still couldn't believed myself. we did dancing. two songs in fact! can u believe that?
i did make up! arrrghh!!! i wore foundation, compact powder, a bit of lipstick (but not the shiny bright red one la), hairspray, mascara, red colour hair dye! you named it. ive got it all. what have i done?! muahaha!! now i know what being an artist felt like. its just crazy.

this is one in a life time only experience. im having the time of my life.

the ok part: food. the food is quite nice. we had chinese cuisine. soup, veg, fish, prawn. actually one dish was not enough for 10 person per table. but anyway its a nice

the x ok part: at the end of the dinner they promised us music to get jiggy. but to our horror the DJ did nothing. they just played some stupid number with low volume. we tried pleading to them to pls play some music. but all went on deaf ears. those stupid fucking shit DJ's. i am really frustrated coz i've been waiting for it the whole night.

so, the verdict. its a fun night. not entirely perfect but still i enjoyed it very much. some memories are just passing by but some will stay for as long as we can remember.

and this will surely stay.

Separuh Akhir

need i say more? Chelsea managed 2 reach the semi-final stage of ECL. AGAIN! yeah! its 4th apprnce in 5 years. x bad eh? mayb the 4th time lucky. who knws. but hey, hve confidnce. myb ths yr is Chelsea's yr. its the only piece of silverware tht eludes Chelsea, n me! so we'll jst hve 2 wait n c la,k.
i wish my team all the best. n hopefuly lady luck is on our side ths time. agi idup agi ngelaban. n last but x least, bring me tht trophy!

Hidup Chelsea!!

last night i saw a good game. Chelsea vs manchester city. and guess what? Chelsea! Chelsea! long live Chelsea! hehehe..

of course la we win. like usual la kan. muahaha! Chelsea 2-1 man city. poor guys. i mean who the hell,in their correct state of mind, would really think they could win at Stamford Bridge? it has and always been our fortress and stronghold for like, at least 4 year. i think. but anyway, the point is, you can only dream la, winning there. pitty the away team actually. well, anyway...

CHELSEA is the BEST!

Blog Pakai Henpon

i was jst playing wth my hp while watchng arsnl slug thmselve out wth lvrpl at home turf in champn league. so i thght can i
try bloggng usng my hp. n guess wht? I CAN! so, offclly, ths is my 1st post using my hp.

not bad eh?

Pancit

today, i got flat tyre. fuck! no wonder i felt strange while riding. dah nak sampai umah dah. fuck! i thought maybe, well, i can pump some air at the petrol station and go to attend my annual dinner practice. but damn! the hole is big! suddenly there was a second punture that i just realize, exitst, may be, because of that stupid strecth of the road that is fucking uneven, bumpy, and.. like shit man!.

tomorrow i need to get up much much earlier that expected because of this misfortune. tomorrow is my offday for heavens sake! well, thats life. unexpected.

damn!

Kerja Baru?

this afternon i went to get my offer letter from the company that offered me the new job la ofcourse. honestly, im not sure. im not sure if i took the right step. you know, taking this job. crossing career path. going into the unkown for me. i dont know. should i go on with it? i still have a choice to back away la. but..

i need to do something with my life. i dont want to stay at my present environment untill, what, forever?! i have nothing to lose now. i need to improve my life la... arrghh!! i must be brave.. must! i need to leave my comfort zone, that give me nothing, and venture to the unknown and take risk. who knows it might be better. nobody knows. but if i didnt take the first step, i'll never know. right?

gosh! once inside, here's no turning back. god, am i for real?.. it must be, coz if not then im in big troble.